Redemption

Chapter 1: I am Rudy

I stare at my reflection in the mirror
"Why am I doing this to myself?"
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
who you are

Brushing my hair-do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould, yeah!
The more I try the less it's working, yeah
'Cause everything inside me screams
No, no, no, no, no...

I cried to myself as I listened to 'who you are' by Jessie J. It's the song I go to when I'm feeling down. A heart break is what I endured. A twisted shattered heart that has been walked on and cut so many times. I hate my life, I do. There's no reason for me to be living. No one loves me, no one is here for me. All I have is myself.

My name is Rudy Gabrielle Mitchell. I'm an African American girl, I'm 17 years old, and I attend Hollywood High School in Los Angeles. Yes I'm a Cali girl! I'm 5'6, caramel complexion, and I have big hazel eyes. My hair is all natural, I like to dye it different colors, right now I'm settled on jet black with purple brown streaks. Anyway I'm skinny, medium sized boobs, small butt, nothing major. But many say my face make up for it.

I'm a sensitive and shy person. I'm a big crybaby. I try to act hard buuuut, I'm not unless you really mess with me. I have a low self esteem, and I down myself some times. Not intentionally though. Its a force of habit.

The reason Im crying right now is because of my ex bf. Let me tell you the short story. I was dating this guy name Devin. 3 years and 4 months in a deep relationship or so I thought. I walked in on him and his fiance. Dude was literally down on one knee proposing to some female. He's 19 and shes 18. They say they've been going together since 5 grade and he only started going with me to make her mad. Dumb bitches.

Even though it happened like four weeks ago. It hurts still though cause I've been through a lot. Never had friends nor a real family. I didn't trust anyone either. He was the first one I ever put my trust in. I even almost gave him my virginity. Glad I didn't though! I hate him. Ion think I'll ever love again.

I tossed and turned in my bed staring out the window at the kids play. Sometimes I miss my childhood which was taken away from me. I was in a Foster home at the age of 2 when I got 5 I turned into a mini Cinderella. Luckily 5 years later I was adopted by Sylvia and Ryan Farmer. At first they treated me like a princess until things took a turn for the worse 3 years later and they got a divorce. So now I live with Sylvia and Travis her boo.

I have no privileges, I have to make my own money, and I hate Travis, he evil. He beat on Sylvia, call me outta my name, and he a cheater. Kid don't know how many kids he got. I only met 3. Trayvia (14), Traylin(6), and Tailey(2). Anyway they cool or whatever but I'd rather stay to myself.

I actually like Tailey she my lil cool kid. But. They're another reason why I hate Travis. He made Sylvia stop buying me things so she can spend all her money on him and his gremlins. Thats why I got a job at the theatre. It's been holding me in there but I need more money to get my own car. Thats why I've been job hunting. But yea this my life I hope y'all enjoy my story.

I hope y'all enjoy the life of Rudy!
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