Mr. Wrong (Mr. Series #1)

Chapter 32

Ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko. Gusto kong patigilin, pero hindi ko alam kung paano.

"Tungkol sa ating dalawa?"

I started to feel nervous. Should I also tell him what my situation is? About being pregnant?

Pumunta kami sa lugar kung saan makakapag-usap kami nang malaya. 'Yong kaming dalawa lang. More likely in a lush area with many plants and flowers.

"I learned that our parents are rivals," panimula niya. "I wasn't aware before since I ran away from them and I'm living alone. And when they learned that I transferred schools, met you, and became friends with you, they told me not to associate with you," pagpapatuloy niya.

And there, I figured out that we might be in the same situation. His parents might not want him to approach me either, just like my father wants me to do so. Maybe that's why Jhon Rey needed that space before, especially when something happened to us. He may be experiencing the same chaos inside as I am.

"I was bombarded with things I'm trying to solve that's why I asked for time to think, especially about what happened to us."

I nodded. Tama nga ako. I can see now why he suddenly said those words when I asked him hypothetically. Maybe he was just carried away by a gust of emotion. Naiintindihan ko, pero hindi ko maiwasang masaktan—thinking that he was not ready for me because he doesn't love me either.

"Did you do it on purpose?"

Napakunot ang noo ko sa tanong niya. "What do you mean, Jhon Rey?"

"Did you plan it all? Seduce me, so something will happen between the two of us?"

I was shocked by his accusations. "W-what?"

"Iyon lang ang naiisip kong dahilan kung bakit nangyari lahat ng ito. This is not what I meant when I said you could use me."

I grimaced in disappointment. I never imagined that I would hear this from him.

"Anong pinupunto mo, Jhon Rey?"

Nakakaramdam ako ng init. Hindi pa tapos ang araw at heto, may nangyayari na namang mas lalong nagiging dahilan ng stress ko. Ramdam ko ang pinaghalo-halong emosyon sa loob ko at ang umiibabaw ay ang poot. I feel like I will burst at any moment.

"I mean, I told you to use me as an excuse to get rid of your ex-boyfriend, or maybe make him jealous so he can come back to you. I don't know your reason, but I was just willing to help you, and now you seem so fine. Mukhang nagkabalikan na kayo. Magpapakasal na ba kayo?"

Mas lalong nagsalubong ang mga kilay ko. Hindi ko maintindihan kung saan patungo ang pag-uusap naming dalawa. Hindi ito ang inaasahan kong pag-uusapan namin. "Bakit ganiyan ang mga tanong mo?"

"I want to know if I became useful enough to you, and if we can stop this now."

I was stunned. There are no words left to come out. I was gasping air like I was trying to calm myself.

"I don't want you to use me against your father, because I feel like you're doing it."

I closed my eyes, trying to compose myself. I don't want to make a scene here, kahit na pwede ko namang gawin dahil wala namang makakikita sa amin bukod sa aming dalawa. Nakakapagod. Gusto ko siyang tanungin. Pagod na ako sa mga bagay na nangyayari sa paligid ko pero ang tanging nasambit ko lang ay, "I am not using you against my father," matigas kong sabi habang pinipigilan ang mga luhang nagbabadyang bumagsak.

I never thought I would feel annoyed with the person I used to admire. I want to understand him because he may be feeling exhausted like I am, but what I don't understand is where his suspicions come from that I am using him against my father when all I did was choose him beyond death.