Mr. Wrong (Mr. Series #1)

Chapter 43

"So it happened that night. It seemed like it was also my fault that you were in that situation. If I hadn't given you that drink..." puno ng pagsisisi niyang sabi.

Actually, hindi ko rin inakalang psychology student siya nang gabing iyon dahil ibang-iba ang itsura at aura niya. He was so intimidating that I even drank it without second thoughts when he gave me a glass of wine.

"No, it wasn't your fault. It was me who decided to drink what you gave me. Don't blame yourself."

And to be honest, I can't even blame the alcohol for what happened. It is I who needs to be blamed for being so naive, and even if I regret it now, I can't take back what happened. I just need to find a solution for how to fix everything.

"You know what? I noticed that you're an empath."

I frowned. "Empath? What do you mean?"

"You tend to be more understanding of people around you, even if they do something wrong to you; you feel that you are the one who is wrong, that you are to blame for their actions."

Ganoon ba ako?

"Empath people are very understanding to the point that they lose their self-boundaries. And they don't notice that. Because they respect other people, they lose their respect for themselves. And empaths are the ones who can be easily manipulated by people, especially narcissists."

I grimaced. So what he described to me is the kind of person I am?

"Have you ever thought that you are the problem, and because of you everyone is in trouble?"

I paused for a moment, trying to remember if there was ever a time when I was like that.

"I really am the problem," I answered. "Kung hindi ko sinuway si dad, wala sana ako sa sitwasyong ito."

"See? But have you ever wondered why you didn't follow your dad?"

"I just want to make my own decision," deretso kong sagot sa kaniya.

"That even though you didn't know the consequences of that decision, you didn't think about it because at that time you wanted to stand up for yourself and fight for your decision, am I right?" he added to my response.

Hindi ako nakapagsalita. Mukhang alam niya na rin naman ang sagot ko. He nodded his head as if he immediately knew my story, or at least my background, and why I acted this way. Are all psychology students like this? They seem to determine you immediately.

"Because you tend to suppress all of your feelings, when there is a situation that causes you intense emotions, you can't help but explode. Everything that has been accumulated inside you, you unintentionally released it all in one. You can't think about what you're going to say anymore; you can't control yourself because you're letting it all out in a flash. That's where your handling of the situation becomes wrong, which leads to making a wrong decision," he explained.

And there I remember those times that I have said a lot of awful things to people—to Jhunel, to Anne, and even to my father. Paolo Rod was right; this started when I never had a chance to talk to my best friend since she was so busy. I don't have someone to talk to, which is why my feelings remain covered inside me.

"You need to understand yourself, learn yourself, so you can look at the situation in front of you clearly. Only you can know yourself and observe what and who you are."

The way he talks is encouraging. Para bang nagiging aware na ako kung paano intindihin at mahalin ang sarili ko dahil sa mga ipinapaliwanag niyang bago sa aking pandinig.

"You will learn not to blame yourself for all the problems and eventually be able to solve them because you will be focused on finding solutions."

I just stared at him while he explained. Every word struck my heart like it was really meant for me.