Mr. Wrong (Mr. Series #1)

Chapter 24

"Why? What do you have that you got without me? Have you proven anything?"

I couldn't speak. I was stunned. For the first time in my life, I began to ask questions about my capabilities. What he said is true because it hits me really hard. I have nothing to be proud of because everything I have is because of him.

I was ashamed of myself. I shouldn't be answering him like this. I have no right.

Tiningnan niya ako bago siya naglakad palampas sa akin.

"What's this?" He immediately took the gift I prepared for Jhon Rey and looked at it. I was about to grab it when he pushed me.

"For Jhon Rey Carpio?"

He glared at me while holding the gift I should not have bought. I shouldn't have promised to go because my situation is like this. Bakit ba pinilit ko pa? Alam ko namang napakaimposible.

I can see his rage toward me. He feels like he was betrayed by his daughter. And I was too late to apologize for what I did.

"And you really continued flirting with that man? Aren't you afraid of me anymore? Is this what he taught you? Insult and disgrace me?"

I gulped. I felt even more scared of him. Ni hindi na ako makapagsalita. My heart is racing, and I want to disappear at this moment.

Reality hits me. Hindi ko na dapat ipinaglaban pa ang karapatan ko dahil una sa lahat, hindi ako binigyan no'n. Ipinagkait na ito sa akin simula palang nang isilang ako sa mundong ito.

"Sheena! What are you waiting for? Where is my gun?" he shouted, making the whole room afraid of its existence.

Tears started to fall, especially when I saw how my father destroyed the gift I had prepared. He tore the gift wrapper and even laughed at the wallet I bought. Itinapon pa niya iyon kung saan.

It hurts so much to be underestimated by someone you look up to. I respected him for a long time and obeyed him, but he never saw me as his own child.

"Did I tell you to cry? Isn't this what you wanted when you talked back at me? You want to see your ending."

I turned to Mom when I saw her return. Carrying the small box that I'm sure contained a gun.

I closed my eyes, especially when I saw her hands shiver out of fear. She is in tears. I'm hurt because even her can't do anything to defend me. This patriarchal system in this house has made us more scared and feel inferior.

"Is this the daughter you are proud of?"

My heart is crushed.

"She keeps disappointing me. Look how she prepared herself to meet that asshole son of Carpio."

"Stop this, Rodolfo," saad ni mom sa kaniyang nanginginig na boses. "She just wanted to go out."

"Shut up." He walked towards my mother and violently took the small wooden box that contained his revolver gun, which I met the last time I went to his office when we played the betting game.

He stared at me while he opened the wooden box. He took the bullet and loaded it into his gun.

"Shall I kill you, or will you do it for yourself?"

Tumigil ang paghinga ko. Nakatitig ako sa isang taong hindi ko na sigurado kung ama ko pa ba o kampon na ng kadiliman.

I never thought he could ask that of me.

Despite his cruelty and constant physical abuse, I never once thought that he could continue to kill me.

Minsan, napapaisip na lang ako kung siya ba talaga ang biological father ko dahil kung kamuhian niya ako ay parang hindi niya ako tunay na anak. Ramdam ko sa buto ko na hindi niya kayang tingnan ako nang matagal. Hindi ko na nga maalala ang huling beses na ipinakita niya sa akin na isa siyang ama, baka nga hindi talaga. Wala akong ni isang alaala na naging proud siya sa akin bilang anak niya. Baka nga iyon ang dahilan kung bakit gusto niya na akong ipakasal pagkatapos kong maka-graduate, dahil hindi niya na ako gustong makita. Every single move I made was wrong. Even if I try to do the right thing, he sees it as a mistake.