Mr. Wrong (Mr. Series #1)

Chapter 47

Unti-unti kong minulat ang mga mata ko.
Sumalubong sa akin ang puting liwanag.
Nakakasilaw.

"She's awake. Sheen May is awake now," I heard a woman say.

"Oh, thank you, God!"

Sinubukan kong umupo at doon ko nakita ang isang babae at isang lalaki.

"Sheen May, thank God you're finally awake." A woman held my hand before she wiped her tears. "Hold on, I'll call the doctor." Umalis siya sa harap ko at naiwan ang isa pang babae at lalaki sa kwarto. They were both looking at me and seemed to not know what to do.

Kumunot ang noo ko at sinubukang alalahanin kung sino sila.

"How are you feeling now?" It was my best friend Anne and my ex-boyfriend, Jhunel. Their faces looked like they couldn't believe that a miracle exists, and they seemed so happy that they finally saw me awake but sad at the same time because of what happened.

Maya-maya lang ay dumating na si mom kasama ang doctor. Siya siguro 'yong sumisigaw kanina. Nakita kong umiiyak siya habang kinakausap ako ng doctor, asking me how I felt and if there was anything that hurt. He is also checking my vital signs.

I couldn't remember what happened and why I am here at the hospital.

"Your baby is safe, Miss Velasco," the doctor announced before he bid us goodbye.

I held onto my stomach. Doon ko nakita ang braso ko. Sa may pulsuan... There's a bandage covering my cut. I remember now how hopeless I am.

Bumigat ang paghinga ko, at muli, bumalik ang lahat ng sakit. Hindi ko maiwasang umiyak muli lalo na't naaalala ko na naman ang mga nangyari.

I was too desperate to get rid of those shitfeelings toward the world and couldn't get the chance to think about what I did. I killed myself that day.

I closed my eyes, and there I saw Jhon Rey's face... He was so mad at me that he swore I would die.

"I shouldn't be here," I whispered, which they heard. "I was supposed to die that day and finish it all."

"No, darling. Don't say that." Mom held my hand while trying to stop her tears. "You're supposed to be here with us. Don't leave us again, please."

I noticed that their eyes were puffy as well, and they were about to cry again because of what I'd said. 

"Sheen May..." pagtawag ni mom sa akin na para bang pinatitigil ako sa pananalita.

"Can all of you go out for a while? I want to be alone."

Nakita kong tumango sila at nagdesisyong sundin ako. Lumabas sila sa pintong iyon at naiwan akong mag-isa.

"I'm not leaving you here," Jhunel said, and that's when I saw him sitting on the side while looking at me intently. "Not anymore."

Umiiling siya. "After what happened, I don't think I can get off of my eyes from you."

"Please, just give me some time to think. Get out for a moment," pakiusap ko.

"You can think and act like I am not here but I won't leaving you again." Matigas ang pagkakasabi niya na para bang kanina niya pa pinipigilan ang mga luha niya.

"You can think and act like I am not here, but I won't leave you again," he mouthed as if he had been holding himself back to scold me for what happened. I always forget that he was my lover, and I become too insensitive when it comes to him. I know it may hurt him a lot to see me in despair.

Napabuntong hininga ako. I can feel how worried he is about me, but I feel like I have nothing to say to them after what I did. Akala ko, magiging malayo na ako sa wakas, pero dahil nabuhay pa ako ngayon, I think people will look down on me even more.