𝐃𝐄𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐘 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐒 | 𝐁𝐗𝐁

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"So you let your sister live with that jerk?" Luke cursed as he lay next to me.

"If they want to live together, I can't stop them," I looked away, "Besides, you don't know Sam. Stopping her from doing something she wants will always make her do worse."

"Okay, but she's not even a minor!" Luke lifted his beer from the grass and reached for it. "Besides, isn't this the guy who declared his love for you in a dirty bar restroom in Georgetown?"

"Matt has never been emotionally stable." I took a few moments to mentally replay what had happened in the past, "He also never said he was gay. He may be bisexual and apparently he likes my sister."

"How is such a thing possible?" Luke curse again, then took a long sip of his beer, "We know he broke up with Camilla because the poor girl does nothing but gather around the other cheerleaders and cry all day. But after telling you he left Camilla for you, he decided to date your sister?"

"Maybe he's just afraid," I admitted, "I was too, and I can assure you that I'm not into men. But when I'm around Matt..."

"Don't try to justify him!" Luke immediately protested, "You hate him, and I want it to stay that way. Because you're totally right to do that. He's an asshole, Ben. Also, it's New Year's. Do you want me to take you to a gay party or something? Or help you set up a profile on Grinder."

"I don't want stupid gay apps," I shouted, "I just wanted Matt, and now that he's gone, I don't need to meet another man..."

"Are you going to punish yourself like this?" He punched the back of my neck a little, "Shake it off, pull yourself together. If he's dating your sister, you can date others, too."

"I don't want to date someone I don't know just to get back at him," I protested, "That's childish, Luke. Besides, these things never work out properly."

"Then you can just have fun. You don't have to get attached to someone right away. By the way, I'm just saying, if I were you, I'd call my mom and tell her my bad little sister is living with a guy in New York."

"So what good will this do?"

"I don't know," he said, opening his hands, "Maybe she'll send your stepdad down here. Sam hates him, doesn't she? Since he's legally her parent, he could grab her by the collar and take her back home."

"If I did that, Sam would hate me forever," I sighed.

"But you hate her!" Luke let out a shrill scream, "You have to because she took your man away."

"Stop talking nonsense!" This time I shouted like him, "She's my sister! Sam may be a crazy teenage, but she didn't know what was going on between Matt and me before she came."

"Why didn't you tell her?"

"That my roommate was about to stick his dick in my ass?" I rolled my eyes like crazy, "I'm sorry Luke, but I couldn't bring my sister to this gay thing when it was all so new even to me."

"My parents know," Luke shook his shoulders quietly, "I thought it would be the end of the world when I first told them, but they understood."

"I'm happy for you," I said, rubbing my palms, "But my family isn't like yours. The countryside doesn't take kindly to that kind of thing."

"So what?" Luke laughed nonchalantly, "You don't have to answer to anyone for who you fuck."

"Maybe one day, but I need to figure it out on my own first."

"All you need to understand is come with me to this New Year's Eve party." As I was about to protest, he grabbed my arm and looked me in the eye, "I'm not telling you to fuck anyone. But if you want to be enlightened about your sexuality, you need to learn from how make you feel  being intimate another man than Matt."