you can't run away from this song

chapter 17

Now everything is clear,

"Emma, I need you to keep Nancy as far as you can from me and patch today!"

"How? And why?"

"I will tell you everything later, but this is so important, keep her away by any means you can do! She must not see us!!"

"Okay" she seem to be still confused, I left her and went to my seat, and now I must wait untill the day ends.

The day ended, I almost ran to the school gates, I waited for him outside cuz it's more safe so that neither Nancy nor her friend might notice as they come out pushing each other, so most out the girls wait inside untill the boys get out first, anyway just as I saw, it was like fighting to reach him but I got his hand, he looked at me somehow confused,

"What do you want?"he said in a low voice, I didnt even gear it well I just read his lips,

"I need to tell you something important!!" I didn't wait for him to answer, I pulled him out and we walked for a while so we can get away from school, then I stopped. All I did was just look on his eyes, suddenly I forgot everything I wanted to say,

"What?what is it?"he ask, he didn't seem cold, but confused,

"Why?....." what's the problem!? Words are just stuck in my throat!!
No I must know!! "Why didn't you tell me?"

"Tell you what?I don't understand anything! "

"I heard everything from Nancy."

"What?!she told you!!that bitch" his face turned red from anger,

"No she didn't! I over heard her talking to her friend" he turned his look to me again, he just kept staring, he was in loss with words,

"What did you think I would do if I knew?what did you think that I am going to break up with you? Or did you think tha-"

"I was scared that you might hate me, and look down on me, I was just so scared I didn't know what to do!" Some tears started gathering in his eyes,

"If I ever did that, then I am a bad person and I don't deserve you" he stared at me in surprise but I continued "and besides who told you that I would look down on someone who works for his education and for helping his mother? In fact that makes me even happier, cuz it makes me sure that I chose the right person" it really did make me happy I couldn't bring myself not to smile, he us really the best person ever,

"I don't know what to say, I am really happy that you know, this really did take alot of the weights on me, but I don't want anyone to know, you understand? They are going to make me tbe top of the news, i will be looked down by everyone" I felt tears coming to my eyes, I understand and I understand what does that mean,

"you keep ignoring me and I won't talk to you so Nancy won't tell anyone, okay I can do that!" I didn't bring my smile down, I kept smiling because it hide my tears, cuz my eyes becomes almost closed when I smile,

"I'm sorry I-"

"No its really okay " I cut him "got to go! See you later" I turned and didn't wait for his response, and started crying by myself silently, what was thinking of? Why am I crying? What? Did I think that he might give up to nancy and let everyone look down on him and make fun of him just for me? I am stupid! No I was selfish, I wasn't thinking about anyone but myself, but I just wanted him back so much, and I still do, I don't know why, but all I can bring myself to do now is sing, it has been like this since I first met him, music and singing became one of the most important things in my life, music was important to me before but ever since I met him, I started thinking differently about music and songs, now each song has its own meaning and has it's own message, it's words that enters your heart and

right know I want to sing, I want to sing ~I wouldn't mind it -he is we-
I don't care,if anyone is looking or if anyone will think I am crazy singing in the street, I just started singing,

"fall anywhere with you
I'm by your side

Swinging in the rain
Humming melodies
We're not going anywhere until we freeze

I'm not afraid, anymore
I'm not afraid

Forever is a long time
But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side

Carefully we're placed for our destiny
You came and you took this heart, and set it free
Every word you write or sing is so warm to me, so warm to me" SO WARM! THAT I CAN'T BELIVE I HAVE TO LIVE WITHOUT IT ANYMORE! again tears started falling from my eyes, but I continued singing,

"I'm torn, I'm torn to be right where you are

I'm not afraid, anymore
I'm not afraid

Forever is a long time
But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side
Tell me everyday I get to wake up to that smile
I wouldn't mind it at all
I wouldn't mind it at all

You so know me
Pinch me gently
I can hardly breathe

Forever is a long, long time
But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side
Tell me everyday I get to wake up to that smile
I wouldn't mind it at all
I wouldn't mind it at all"