you can't run away from this song

chapter 18

I walked to my house, I wanted to walk more and more I just don't want to stop, but if I did so my mom would be worried, I went to my room, I kept staring at the wall, and normally I cant sleep, I was right at the end, love is just a stupid thing that makes marks drop, just ny that I decided to go study,

"Goodnight honey!" My mom called out, wait what time is it I looked at my phone, What?!it's 12:00pm!! Wow time did really pass by fast, but still I am wide awake so I continued studying, just like that the sun already starting rising, I don't want to sleep yet but I don't want to study too, I want to walk!

I put on my training suit, and took my I-pod, it looks like mom haven't Walken up yet, I didn't want to wake he up so I left her a note so she wouldn't worry if she woke up before I was back.

I started walking aimlessly, I put my head phones on, and flew with my world of music, song after song, maybe I kept walking for almost hour and half, so I sat down to rest, I took my head phones off and started staring at the sky, i like looking at the sky when I am sad, depressed or angry, it always calms me down, then I heard guitar playing, Guitar?! Now? It's so early, but it was so gentle and relaxing, I don't know why but I found myself singing, ~Words- Skylar grey-, the music and the song made very perfect match that it took me to another world,

"Always in a rush,

Never stay on the phone long enough,

Why am I so self-important?

Said I'd see you soon,

But that was, oh, maybe a year ago,

Didn't know time was of the essence.

So many questions,

But I'm talking to myself,

I know that you can't hear me any more,

Not anymore,

So much to tell you,

And most of all goodbye,

But I know that you can't hear me any more.

It's so loud inside my head,

With words that I should have said,

And as I drown in my regrets,

I can't take back the words I never said,

I never said,

I can't take back the words I never said.

Always talking shit,

Took your advice and did the opposite,

Just being young and stupid,

I haven't been all that you could've hoped for,

But if you'd held on a little longer,

You'd have had more reasons to be proud.

So many questions,

But I'm talking to myself,

I know that you can't hear me any more,

Not anymore,

So much to tell you,

And most of all goodbye,

But I know that you can't hear me any more.

It's so loud inside my head,

With words that I should have said,

And as I drown in my regrets,

I can't take back the words,

The longer I stand here,

The louder the silence,

I know that you're gone but sometimes I swear that I hear,

Your voice when the wind blows,

So I talk to the shadows,

Hoping you might be listening 'cos I want you to know,

It's so loud inside my head,

With words that I should have said,

And as I drown in my regrets,

I can't take back the words I never said,

I never said,

I can't take back the words I never said,

Never said,
I can't take back the words I never said."

I kept my eyes closed cuz I felt that I'm going to cry,

"Samii, what are you doing here?" I thrilled, and looked around me to see,PATCH!!?, "omg, sorry I didn't mean to surprise you!" He patted mu shoulder, my breathing calmed down,

"No it's okay, sorry I didn't expect to see anyone, this early" I smiled at him? "So what are you doing here?"I asked,

"What am I doing here! I live here! What are you doing here?" He didn't tell me which one was his house but I didn't want to ask, cuz maybe this would bother him,

"I was walking"

"Walking?this early?" He looked like he was making fun of me, but I don't know why he was talking so normal, it was obvious that he was pretending but I don't know why, so that I won't notice that he is sad and hurt?or that I won't get hurt? I don't know,

"Yeah, I walk up early this morning" I smiled at him, but since this is a lie that no one would believe, even I wouldn't believe about myself, he realy didn't seem to be convinced at all,

"So you were singing!" He changed the subject, I nodded that was all that I can do, "not surprised why I was attracted to your voice" he looked away and lowered his voice, if he told me this anytime but now, I would have been so happy but now it realy hurts, I really wished that I could stay with him much longer, and that our relationship would last forever but since it have to end, and we no longer can be with each other, there is no use of this conversation to continue,

"I have to go back to get ready for school!" I stood up to leave,

"Do you want me to walk you?"

"No, you don't have to!" I turned and left.

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