All I Wanna Be (Spin off to Somebody To You- Nemi)

Chapter 1

Demi

I only had a few weeks before Damon's sixth birthday, so I was shopping with Chloe for his party stuff. His theme this year was baseball, his newest obsession. He started playing T-ball when he turned four & he had been obsessed, with it, ever since. His little sisters had just turned three & Damon adored them, but they still weren't much fun to him. They were both very girly, but they sure did idolize their big brother.

Nick & Joe were both thrilled that Damon loved baseball, since both of them were into sports. Nick preferred football or a fight, of course, but he had done a few celebrity baseball games, so he was starting to appreciate the sport more. Not as much as I enjoyed it, however. I always had a love for it & even played softball when I was younger. I took Nick to some games once in a while, but now I could just take Damon, if I wanted to. Joe enjoyed it & sometimes he'd take Damon to a game.

Nick & I had been married two years now & I'm not just saying this, but we are blissfully happy & have been since we said, "I do." I can count on one hand how many fights we've had in the two years we've been married. We really did have an amazing marriage & it got stronger everyday.

Although Nick & I were enjoying trying to get pregnant, it still wasn't happening. He hardly brought up the fact that I wasn't getting pregnant, anymore. In fact, neither of us did. I had been putting off going to see my doctor so he could run tests, but Nick wasn't really aware of that. I hadn't really talked to him about my feelings on the subject of my fertility. I wasn't sure I wanted to do any tests. I should probably talk to Nick about it, but I was afraid it would start an argument or I was afraid of his response. So I just didn't say anything.

I think Nick & I both had come to the reality that I wasn't going to get pregnant. Over two years & nothing happening was definitely a sign. Our sex life was pretty incredible, too, so I knew it wasn't from lack of trying. We had sex at least a few times a week & sometimes on weekends when Damon was with Joe, we'd do it every few hours. It never got old with us, honestly. Nick was always doing something different. I guess there was a plus side to marrying a former man whore.

"This is so cute." Chloe interrupted my thoughts. I looked up to see her holding up a princess tiara. "I'm getting it because I'm pretty sure that one of them will want to wear it." She laughed as she put the decoration into her basket.

"Sometimes, I wish Damon was into girly stuff just so I could get stuff like this." I held up a wand that matched the tiara, laughing.

"Oh my God, the guys would go ballistic if Damon wanted a tiara at his party." Chloe laughed out loud & I nodded in agreement. "Maybe one day you will have a little girl. Are you & Nick still trying to get pregnant?" Chloe asked in a quiet, unsure voice.

I nodded, my mouth turned down in a frown. "Almost every day." I chuckled & Chloe rolled her eyes then made a gagging noise as she laughed. "Well, not really every day.... but a few times a week at least. I think it's time we faced the facts & we should just look into other options." I said, but not really meaning what I was saying. I didn't really want to try other options, something I had also not shared with Nick. I went back to looking at the shelves at birthday supplies, ignoring the sad expression on Chloe's face. I grabbed a few things for Damon, then turned to look at Chloe. "We can go. I have everything I need for now."

Chloe & I left the store & she dropped me off at home. Damon was with Joe for the day, since he was on spring break. He was bringing him home after dinner, so I had a few hours to wrap his presents & hide the decorations.

Shortly after Nick & I got married, I went back to nursing, full time. Now, I was working as a private nurse for an older, retired, actor, named Jasper. I worked the day shift, mostly & only during the week. He had children that took care of him on weekends, so it worked out for me. It gave me time to still sing. I was doing backup singing for the label for different artists so I did that on the weekends when they needed me. It wasn't too often, really, which was fine by me. I did some modeling right after Nick & I got married & I was still getting calls to do more, but I was so busy, I didn't accept as many offers. I also didn't want to get too into modeling because it was addictive, with all the pampering & gorgeous clothes.