All I Wanna Be (Spin off to Somebody To You- Nemi)

Chapter 27

Demi

My first day on the 10th floor, I got acquainted with everyone & was given a tour. I had my first therapy session with Dr. Kennedy so she could get to know me & I could share my concerns. Of course, I was concerned about being put on any antidepressant medication & the harm they could do to my unborn child, but my doctors all assured me the dosage was very small. They also were putting me on the drug that had the best results in studies, with the lowest risk.

I was glad to be getting help & now that I knew exactly what was wrong with me, I was less scared & that helped me feel better. I was also comforted knowing both of my doctors, Dr. Kennedy & Dr. Shue were experienced with postpartum depression. Both have suffered from it as well & that gave me significant hope.

I spent my days doing every kind of therapy you could imagine, plus I also got some free time to do whatever I wanted. During my free time, I wrote in a journal or listened to the radio & once in awhile, I'd join other patients in the TV room. Everyone seemed to keep to themselves for the most part, but they all seemed nice.

During my sessions with my doctors, I told them all about my life & by the fourth day, they were confident that the traumatic events in my life, finally made me reach my limit, resulting in my depression. I felt so amazing by the end of that fourth day & both of my doctors were impressed with my progress. I opened up to them about everything & held nothing back, which was a big step in my recovery from this depression. I told them things I had never told anyone else & even acknowledged my fears. Even though Nick assured me he wasn't leaving me, I still had a fear that he would. I wouldn't blame him, if he did. He didn't sign up for this kind of crazy.

After my last session of the evening on the fourth day of being on the psychiatric floor, Dr. Kennedy gave me amazing news. She said that I could go home the next day. I, literally, screamed from the joy, since I missed my family so much. I scared several patients, but it was worth it. The rest of the evening, I couldn't stop smiling. I was watching TV & as if the universe knew I needed to see my husband, there was a commercial for his TV show, Kingdom, that came on. I leaned forward & watched it, intensely, but smiling because of how excited I was to see him soon.

"That Nick Jonas is so hot. I watched a few episodes of that show & he's so good. I'm so happy Ronda Rousey is gonna be on this next season." Some woman, named Paige, said, sitting a few seats over. I just smiled & nodded as the commercial came to an end. No one knew my last name, so no one knew I was his wife.

Another patient, Cynthia sighed. "He just had a baby, too. Man... his wife is one lucky girl."

I had to bite my lip to stifle a giggle, but the girls all heard me & all looked at me, peculiarly. Lara, a patient who was in the room next door to mine, smiled & chuckled. "Demi has a bit of a crush I think. You are bright red, girl."

"Well, yea, I'm bright red. You're all staring at me." I pulled my legs up & wrapped my arms around my knees.

"Come on Demi... tell us what you'd do to Nick Jonas if you were given a chance." Paige snickered. "If you were Ronda what would you do to that hottie?"

My mouth hung open as I shook my head. "I'm not going to play this game. And Ronda won't be doing anything to that hottie since he's a married man." I said, sticking my nose in the air & smiling.

"Maybe not in real life anymore, but on the show she will be." Paige smirked.

I perked up at that. "What do you mean?"

"I read in one of those entertainment magazines that she's playing his love interest at some point in the second season, which I heard will resume shooting in the next few weeks. The first part of the season airs next month, I believe, so I guess we'll see." Paige shrugged her shoulders & I felt sick, thinking that Nick could be kissing Ronda, in any capacity.