All I Wanna Be (Spin off to Somebody To You- Nemi)

Chapter 21

Demi

This pregnancy was making me so emotional & irrational, but then again, I was a woman, so we could be that way, on any given day, pregnant or not. I knew I had overreacted when Nick told me about Ronda joining the cast of his show, but I couldn't help it. He had a relationship with her. Well, a sexual relationship, anyway. But they were also close friends who worked together & spent a lot of time together, besides the sex they had. They clearly had a connection. For some reason, I felt threatened by this fact. I didn't have a reason to not trust Nick, but I couldn't help thinking about what Derek had told me about them & then Derek thinking Nick had maybe been unfaithful to me. A small part of me wondered if he had ever cheated on me. He could say he hadn't, but a guy who cheated wouldn't admit that. 

I was lying on the bed, silently crying, as I looked down at my belly. I caressed it with one hand & wiped my tears with the other hand. I heard the bedroom door open & looked up to see Nick peek his head in. "Can I come in?" He asked. 

I sighed, looking back down at my stomach. "I guess."

Nick closed the door behind him & walked, cautiously toward the bed. He held onto the bed post at the foot of the bed & watched me, carefully for a few moments. "I am not going to want to fuck Ronda again. Not now. Not ever. I take my wedding vows very serious, not to mention the fact that I am head over heels in love with you. Then there is the sex, which is beyond amazing." Nick smiled at me as he sat on the bed at my feet. I stared at him, trying not to smile & give him the satisfaction just yet. He picked up my feet & placed them in his lap, then started rubbing them. His thumb dug into the ball of my foot & it felt so good, I closed my eyes & let out a soft moan. "Mmm... does that feel good?" He asked in sexy voice. I opened my eyes & smirked at him. We stared at each other for a few minutes while he rubbed my feet. It really did feel amazing & I wanted to enjoy it before I spoke again.

You swear you've never cheated on me?" I asked, finally, after several minutes of enjoying Nick's fingers.

Nick let out an annoyed sigh with a slight eye roll as he stopped rubbing my feet. He pushed them off his lap & stood up. "Why do you keep asking me this? Do you think that I have cheated on you?" He asked, his voice raising a little as his arms were outstretched.

I pushed myself up to lean on the headboard. "You were on tour & it can happen. I just want you to be honest. I mean we were away from each other for a while. You were used to having tons of women & I know some of those MMA groupies are now your rock star groupies. Girls are throwing themselves at you, Nick. I get it."

Nick's eyes widened as he put his hands on his hips. "And you what? Think I have no self control? You think I'll just fu.ck any girl without any hesitation? Is this what you really think of me?"

I felt my heart ache because he looked so hurt. I got up off the bed, quickly & went to stand in front of him. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you & that's not what I think of you. I'm just messed up because of my hormones being crazy & I'm paranoid. Just ignore me & my insane brain." I smiled up at him as he kept his face stoic. "I know you haven't cheated on me & I am not worried you're going to fu.ck Ronda."

"Really?" He asked, in a stiff smirk, sounding like he didn't believe me.

"Yes."

Nick kept his eyes on me for a moment, probably trying to decide if I was being honest or not. I had no reason not to believe him, so I was being honest. A small part of me always thought there was a possibility that he has cheated, but then it usually went away at some point & never took long to leave my mind. "Okay, well, let's tuck Damon in." He turned & left the room & I knew he was still irritated with me.