ONLY HER AND ME

CHAPTER 13: 6 MONTHS

6 MONTHS LATER

ARIA'S POV

"Dear diary,
It's been 6 months since I saw him, yes, 6 months....6 months gone so quickly. I know there's alot new things which are going to happen in upcoming months. ALOT. Meeting him, Mac and Elena's marriage, Bhai's new secret girlfriend, Kritika and Zack's marriage, revenge etc. Yes, you heard it right, Mac and Elena are also getting married now. Mac, T's best friend is getting married to my best friend. I also came to know who was the 3rd guy with whom T is best friend with, it's Zack, Kritika's Fiance. Damn, wtf is going on, why are my best friends getting married to his best friends. We all had a hug conversation over this and at the end I accepted that it's their life and their love, none of us can control ourselves with whom we fall in love with. Love is not something which we can force, i know that better than anyone here. Yes, it's true, i realized it in past 6 months now, I hated to admit it, but I can't change the truth, I'm still in love with him. Why????????? He's my past, he's someone i should hate, so why am I in love with my enemy? I feel like living in a fictional world where the guy i hate is my love. I want to hate him so badly, but i can't. That's why even my decisions towards him are taking a wrong turn. Instead of hurting him, I'm protecting him. I realized atleast this much for sure that I can't bear to hurt him. I don't know what should i even do now, I want to hurt him, that's what my mind says, but my heart can't bear this thought. Loving him feels like a sin which i will gladly commit.

I realised few more things in these past few months, the last day when we met 10 years ago, he said he wanted to tell me something, it felt like whatever i was thinking wasn't true and that's why he wanted to tell me something. I have a lot of things to figure out. Only he can answer all of my questions, but I don't know where to start from. For all I know is that I have to leave for LA now. Everything will start making sense from then on.

For now, I won't harm him in any way and will protect him from any outside harm. For past few months, the only update I have received about him is that he's been working hard in his office. He comes for work early and goes home late. He's neither meeting his friends much nor he's been spending any family time. There are a lot of questions inside my mind like, has he moved on? Did he found someone else? Is he really only working? Is he even okay? No, I shouldn't even think about this."

I closed my diary and kept it inside my cupboard along with my other books as I kept it hidden from my mom. She loves to entertain herself through such stuff, like reading journals of other people or reading my chats with my friends.....ahh, that makes me feel so frustrated that I can't even have my own privacy. One day when I'll have my children, I'll make sure I give them their privacy. I won't be like my mom fs.

I went into the washroom and changed into something comfy as today I have my flight to LA. I can't be late. I'm going to LA alone to book my aunt's client. She's been quite busy in her meetings here in India, hence I was assigned to handle this for her, and obviously, because she's my fav person, how can I even say no to her? She's my best friend and the most caring and supportive one in my family.

I wore a white crop tshirt and black shorts underneath and wore a nude colour varsity jacket on top with my black colour sneakers. I like this look. It makes me feel confident and powerful.