UNPARALLELED BONDS

What's wrong with BP

Like wtf he is just doin...........Arghh..

14 Jan Monday
I had my maths practical tomorrow i.e. on 15 Jan. I, here , is literally chillin on terrace with one of my cousin,hr mother and my mom celebrating Lohri and eating the snacks and peanuts. I literally enjoy the sunshine like all this time I've been like a vampire and now I have transformed into a sunshine person. Like seriously wtf I'm doing with my life. I woke up at 11 and now I'm playing around like I've got plenty of time. Later in the evening , Harshita called me. Like always she traumatized me and asked if I completed my maths project. I was like tf when was this. She asked about English project. I told her lazily that I'll print it. Then she mentioned it should be hand written . I was again like oh God where have I been living all this time. But as a true procrastinator I still think I will do it at the right time. Then she talked about her braces and that she had got three brushes for her teeth. I asked if she has only one mouth. I don't  even change my brush regularly. And there she was planning to buy more like a small baby brush.

Her braces were taken off after a long long time. She said a square shaped mark is left on her teeth. Meanwhile I imagine her how would she look.
Then she hanged up.
And I fucked up.
I planned out everything but the maths project sucked. Harshita had suggested me to do the maximum volume of rectangle project . But thank God I used my brain at the end and grabbed wool threads to make a project on graph of sin inverse x. Like I ran here and there and literally everywhere doing meanwhile completing my ip practical file which I would've literally forgotten if harshita never said.
I completed everything half except the freshly and newly ip file. So it was 10:30 when I went to sleep after setting alarms for  2,3,4,5 so on and also the 15 and 30 mins gap too. Now it is 11 pm , I'm still trying to sleep. I could not sleep so I went to my parent's room and slept in between the two. Hugging both side by. It's the most peaceful thing I've ever experienced in my life. Then my alarm rang , it showed 2:00am. I put it off and slept to wake up at 2:30 am . After 10 mins I saw time and it was 2:29 am like wtf man, my time is just disappear to nowhere. Nevertheless i hopefully slept to wake up at 3:15. I had planned all the things . Mysteriously everything worked. So then I went to school and it seemed like I was late.but then I saw one of my classmates . Even though , I climbed the chairs to the fourth floor and entered my classroom which was empty. There were two kids probably of class 11 . After asking them , I ran to the third floor and found my classmates who were adjusting according to there roll no.s. I saw harshita on first bench of second row and she said me to go to second bench .
But there was BP standing. So I thought she meant to say at the last. Then I looked at BPs face while I was in front of him . He gave me a confusing look. I literally like why did I gave him an awkward smiling face. He then discussed with me and finally I sat on the second bench and he moved to the third , behind me. I knew that sitting plan right. Then what the fuck was wrong with him . I swear I was looking like a cartoon that time. Moreover it felt like he friend  zoned me. Like wtf man I never talked to you that much why do you talk like normal friends or classmates. Man I had earlier romanticised you. Actually I don't have feelings for him but still if he would friendzone me it would feel like nothing. Or am I overthinking.Then I chatted with Harshita for sometime and then she had to left after her viva was over. She waved from the outside and I returned. Now I was just alone waiting for my name to be announced so that I would go to the physics lab in the front to sit in front of my maths mam and give viva . I was tensed. There BP got his bags on , and roaming and talking. I felt like next will be two of us. So there was a question  I heard mam was like and that was what is differentiation and integration . I wanted to ask to somebody so I gathered  the courage and stood to turn behind and saw harshad standing with sahil . I asked harshad in a voice lower than a normal human frequency about differentiation definition. He didn't responded , I looked at Sahil and then asked Harshad again . Then he heard it and said he too didn't know. I was like all my efforts for nothing. I turned to the front again and saw BP standing and in the motion to go somewhere until I looked into his eyes and said maybe louder,
Differentiation ki definition kya hai.
Me to myself: why the hell on earth I had to ask to himmmmmmm........
He maintained the fucking eye contact and looked confused maybe but he was thinking so deeply and told me like integration toh sum of all hota h n , differentiation ptani something like that . Like he rolled up things and then asked chetanya who was sitting adjacent to me and said to him differentiation ki definition bol. Bp too now sat in front of chetanya .
It's like we are sitting in a triangle. Chetanya facing to BP . BP facing to both me and him.   And my attention was actually at the topic of interest that time. Bp wore a mask but that never matters because I only notice his eyes so sometimes I forget. Chetanya told him a definition that I could too hear as we were all three were close. BP , I don't know why on earth, asked chetanya.... Esaa bol du usko. Chetanya said something like bol de toh giggling.
Then I showed thumbs up to bp. Then he left to the back and I was regretting that why I have always been so awkward mannnmnn....h might be thinking why I asked him suddenly . Because I had no options and he suddenly popped up in  front of me.

Then wo ghadi aa gyi . Three names were announced - Manan , Shivam and Arsh . I felt strange like Manan and Shivam are toppers and I mtlb whyyy. I'm not,, maybe more like an ex topper. I went there into the lab and sat with them on a chair. Mam said it first and politely she said that -
Omega aapko inke saath isliye bulaya apka level inke level jitna h. Tu bohot acha krti h.Bas tera confidence  Kam h . She said I and they were at the same level. And I am under confident. Otherwise I cando much better.
Some other lines I just forgot. But all my doubts were cleared. She also said manan will help you . Pointing towards Manan she said isko bna apni best friend.
Inside I was like harshita ki baat hori h😂😂like wtf. Manan nodded and said friend toh m iski hu hi. Personally I like Manan. She's so sweet no matter what. But my speaking issues. Well but my viva got amazing . Just few questions and I and Shivam was freed . But I didn't go home alone as I used to . I stood outside at the window. Looked down from there at the road. And asked myself ki agar Mera level unke jitna h toh , why I just ended up like this, what's the point of realizing this at this point. I felt like why I changed. And such meaningless thoughts while Shivam was standing behind me. I didn't turn to look at him .. I was waiting for Manan. He was waiting for other classmates. Maybe he expected I would talk but there I didn't  care much , I was like crying inside , about what mam said. I was nostalgic. After sometime Manan came and talked with Shivam . All the study talks . I stood there and listened like a newbie. Manan asked me to stand close. So I stood close and listened to their other funny talks. Then other people came and stood in circle . All of them boys and I and manan girls. Manan chatted with each one of them . I stood by Manan's side and talking rarely . Then zidan , my classmates and a like idk what typa programmer personality and certainly not single asked manan to check his bag as earlier manan was talking about her unfulfilled dream to check bags as a head prefect. She rejected cause she seems uninterested. Two boys thoroughly checked and then at last Manan who saw some packet. I stood beside her so I knew wht it was. Manan too. I pretended I don't know anything. Manan asked zidan if it was
just for showing or he has got some plans . I was like wtf happening around this world. Seriously..... Then I just roamed and clicked photos with my classmates and one hour just passed. Now I'm again sitting on my terrace chilling with my cousin , her mother and my mom is idk where. Let's see what future holds for me.