Behind the screen / H.HJ Centric (HIATUS)

Gulped down .

(not proof read/ the photo is actually a bit older because guys I am still sick , I do not look good 🫡)

I gulped down the meat , shutting my eyes and trying to focus on the sounds around me . There were many sounds . Too many . The dishes rubbing against each other , the others talking with each other , the glasses clinking together and the chairs moving around which got my head hurt . 

,,Drink ." I opened my eyes , a glass of water right in front of my face. I looked to the side with my milky sight and saw in yeop who was already looking at me with worried eyes . With shaky hands I grabbed it , placing it against my chopped lips and taking a small sip . 

,,So , do you have anything planned for today In-yeop?" Bangchan asked , placing his fork and knife down now that he is finished with eating . ,,Hm , not really . Now that I am finished with my drama , the next shooting will be in few weeks ." I noticed , It wasn't pretty easy for the boy to concentrate on me and answer the question of the others at the same time . 

I looked at him , sweat forming on my forehead as I grabbed his hand that was still lying on my lap . Yes , I indeed felt sick as hell right now but the only thing I could think of was how the others were feeling right now . Were they feeling like me ? Were they having no worries ? Were they happy ? Sad? Angry ? Nauseous ?

Please let them be satisfied god , this is all I am asking for . Even if I need to carry all their worries , their pain , sadness , etc.. if it means they will be happy , I will do anything . 

,,Hyunjin!" I looked up where the voice has been calling me , meeting bangchans worried eyes. ,,Yes?" I said in small voice , still trying to wash away the nauseous feeling . What was he asking again?

,,What if In-yeop just stays over tonight ?" I looked at the boy beside me once again with tired eyes , noticing the worry behind his shining smile . ,, I mean, If you want to? For me you will always be welcome and I will be grateful." I smiled back , satisfying everyone with my answer. 

,,Yah wae?! Y'all only want him to stay over to play games with him until he sees the stars." I threw my pointing finger in the air , swinging it around which made some laugh . But it's true , they only want to play Mario cart with him until midnight and make him their best friend . 

,,Baeeee- baeuda . I should learn how to play games , for sure." In yeop saved himself from exposing both , making everyone's head turn . ,,Ahh yes , We are the best teachers at this ." Jeongin pointed at Han , seungmin and himself . 

While everyone kept on talking , I stood up with my plate and walked over to the food trash , cleaning my plate off before placing it inside the sink . 

,,I-I am gonna go upstairs really quick guys-" ,,Actually , could you maybe bring me with you jin? I never have been here , right ?" In yeop stood up , looking at me with those eyes once again ... The loving , understanding eyes that I fell in love with . 

I gulped down my plan that was failed now . I knew it will be hard to throw everything up with in yeop by my side and it was killing me , eating me from the inside . 

We walked up the stairs hand in hand with a comforting silence . ,,This is my room." I opened the door , showing off my quite big room . ,,Is it a shared one?" He asked behind me , admiring the drawings on my wall. 

,,Yeah it is ." ,,This will be difficult then." He smiled , kissing my forehead . The variety of red shades on my cheek were now on display . ,,I know , but we can just sleep in the living room today." I explained with a small voice . ,,Hey , it's okay hun . Even if we can't sleep beside each other , we can just text until we fall asleep okay?" I nodded , leaning myself against his body and enjoying the silence .