Behind the screen / H.HJ Centric (HIATUS)

Is this....

I chuckled , placing down the blade one more , pressing down on my skin and dragging it vertical over my scar covered skin . It burned more than usual , reopening many other wounds in the process . ,This is so funny.' I laughed , tears still streaming down my face . Feeling better because of pain ? Ironic .

I stood up with wobbly legs , blood pouring down my arms , onto the floor and nearly on my clothes . It would look like a scene from a horror movie if someone walked in . I rinsed off the blade with a stinging pain running up my arm , holding it underneath the burning water.

"Ah!" I let out a painful scream , covering my mouth with my hand as the wounds burned like hell . I couldn't care less if someone heard me at this point , the only thing I thought of was how enormously this hurts . But , even if it hurts this bad ... I couldn't pull away .What am I doing? 

What the hell are you doing Hyunjin ! I screamed at myself mentally . I sobbed into my free hand , eyebrows knitted and lips trembling . 

I watched the water turning from a bloody red into a clear one , the stinging slowly dying down . I pulled away , drying off my arm with my shirt and putting on my hoodie once again . With numb lips and headache I looked thru the bathroom again , checking if everything was cleaned up before unlocking the door and stepping out . 

It was silence , a needle could be heard if she was falling on the floor . Why was it so quiet ?

I walked along the hall , the lights turned off . I kept on walking , stepping down the stairs and walking into the living room . Where is everyone ?

As I stood in the hallway , something familiar replayed in my mind  . The nightmare... What.. what if it was reality?

As my heartbeat and breathing paced up , I felt my body moving on its own . 

I ran up the stairs again , the horrifying experience of the nightmare replaying in my mind over and over again . The way my mom laid on the floor , blood everywhere . 

As I saw the bathroom door , I quickened my pace and slammed against it . I knocked on it many times before trying to open it . My heartbeat stopped for a second as I couldn't open it.

What if a member is hurt? What if ... What if they are dead?!

I kept on knocking harshly and kept on shouting 'Open the door!' over and over again . 

I cried , chocking out sobs as suddenly the door opened , nearly smashing against my body . Is stepped back , eyes big and body trembling once again . 

I met the wide but soft eyes of inyeop staring at me with wet hair hanging in front of his eyes and a white towel wrapped around his waist loosely . 

,,Hyun , what's wrong , I was just showering." (AN: they have 2 bathrooms) My heart fell , tears keep on streaming down . Did I even realize what was going on right now? 

,,Hey baby..." His body moved forward . I was stuck to the floor . What did I do? Have I gone completely insane ?! His hands wrapped around my body . 

3rd Person Point Of View:

Hyunjin didn't returned the hug , he just lets himself fall into the other boys embrace as if his body went slack . 

In yeop ran his fingers thru his boyfriends hair , the other hand caressing his back while he whispered sweet nothings into his ear . he didn't know what was happening right now , but he knows that he needs to comfort hyunjin somehow . 

He slowly pulled away , taking the smaller ones cheeks into his hand and cupping his face . ,,What's wrong honey?" He brushed the wet strands of hair that were stuck to hyunjins face away and puts it behind the younger ones ear .