Ajnabee - The ecstasy of one sided love. ( completed )

Chapter 26

" kya bataun main tumhaare dada ko... ki jisse woh patni nahi maante usse gaon wale tarah tarah ki baate sunate hain . baanjh , badsurat kehte hain woh bhi sirf issi liye kyunki main saade kapde pehen ti hun . " 

tarah tarah ki baatein sunaate hain . Baanjh , badsurat kehte hain

baanjh 

" hum baccha nahi kar sakte Anirudh " Saudamini said throwing her hands out in frustration . " aur mujhe baccha chahiye bhi nahi . ek saal se to try kar hi rahein hain kuch hua kya ....nahi na to fir kyun tum apni yeh bekaar ki jidd pakad kar baithe ho . maan kyun nahi lete hum mein se kisime kami hai . ya toh tum naa mard ho ya fir main baanjh . aur baccha hone se to yehi behtar ki main baanjh hi rahun . " 

baanjh . 

That word was a curse itself. The society acknowledge that as a curse for women but they don't know that it goes both ways. Whatever a woman goes through a man goes through it too. A true Man . Not the definition which society created. An actual man.

Universe has created two species because the world could survive. We need both man and woman to create a world. We need both male and female to create the creation , to nurture. We need both man and woman in the act of marriage. We need both a man and woman in the act of intimacy. We need both man and woman to create another life. To unite families, nations. A king needs it queen as well as a queen needs her king. Even God's need their Goddesses .

If a woman goes through something, some phase, a true Man goes through it too. They goes through it together. Be it sadness or happiness.

Infertility was a curse for women as well as it is for a man. He grimaced with the thought that his ex wife was proudly declaring, accepting that she was infertile. That she's better off childless rather than with a child. In her opinion being a mother was exhausting and a person becomes ugly after getting pregnant. She was concerned about her appearance than their child. In her opinion children were a exhausting task for her. She didn't consider them pure and loving as he did.

He respected that it was her body that she was taking decision about. He knew that women goes through a lot of pain during pregnancy. But he didn't expected herself to be this cruel. Everyone considered infertility as a curse. He did too. He thought that it was his bad luck that he was never going to experience parenting but.... She. She was enjoying being childless.

Later he got to know that she took contraception pills and even the thought of it made his blood boil that she accidentally got pregnant once and aborted their child just because she didn't want it. She killed their child because she didn't want it. And Anirudh didn't knew about it until she was gone. Because of her he lost his will to live , he lost his mother and ...if there was ...if there was a tiniest chance of love in his heart for her  ....he threw it with his heart into a burning fire after knowing he lost his child too ....because of her . And that's when he swore to never fall in love again . 

until he met her . he didn't even knew when that stone of his heart slipped again into his body and started beating . 

Now that he is married to Bondita who respects everything in this name sake marriage. She respects him even though he doesn't really accept her as his wife. Who has gone through so much pain and knows what is the curse named as infertility was being accused of by the illiterate villagers.

She was being cursed by the villagers behind her back. They were accusing her of a curse when she didn't do anything. The way she bitterly cried on Batuk's chest he knew that it hurt her. Being called by the name hurt her like there's an arrow painfully pushing into her heart just like once his did .