Never Thought It Would Be You (Niall Horan Fanfic)

Chapter 36

Chapter 36

Tabitha's Pov

I quietly closed the door behind me as I entered my dark room. I tip tied over to my desk, past Sydnee who was sound asleep on her bed. I rummaged through my drawers in attempt to find my novel, although it was pretty impossible to see considering it was pitch black.

"Tabitha?" Sydnee's sleepy voice asked as she sat up on her bed, rubbing her eyes.

I turned around, facing Sydnee as I fidgeted with my fingers. I pulled out my wheely desk chair, sitting down on it before finally looking up at her.

"Hey" I whispered, barely audible.

"It's 1:36am, where have you been? You missed out on dinner again" she said.

I shifted, looking down at the ground, "no where"

Silence fell as awkward glances were shared.

It's the third night in a row I've missed dinner. I've been trying to avoid my friends. I didn't really wanna see anyone lately, because they would only give me silly sob stories. I hadn't talked to anyone today yet, like the past few days, I've been going back to that same spot. Just sitting and thinking about everything. I've been skipping out on lectures, because well, Niall's there.

I know I'm over reacting but I just don't feel up to it. I know I shouldn't be expecting the 'I love you' but I did, I truly thought he loved me. I know he still likes me but it's not the same I guess. I just don't really wanna see him right now, all I need is time. Don't get me wrong, I still love him, I want to see him, but not right now I guess. I miss him, I really do, but I need some space first.

"So umm, are you feeling any better?" Sydnee spoke up, breaking the silence.

"Yeah, I guess"

She nodded, yawning, "that's good"

"Yeah" I replied as she slowly slid down the wall and back to her sleeping position.

Sydnee doesn't like getting woken up in the middle of the night.

"Niall misses you" she whispered.

"I miss him too" I simply replied.

"Do you still love him?"

"Yeah"

"Are you still dating?" she asked as her eyes fluttered shut.

I haven't thought about that lately. I don't even know if he's still my boyfriend. Would it be ok if he still was? Like, I love him but he only likes me? What if we're done now? Ok, maybe I'm over thinking but we still could be...

"I don't know" I answered, looking back over to where Sydnee was as she slowly fell asleep again.

"Wake up" Sydnee whispered, gently shaking me as I slightly opened my eyes, sun rays burning my eyes.

"No" I groaned, rolling over as I sleeplessly slapped her away.

"Tab, you haven't been to class in three days, you're not missing out again" she said, shaking me again.

"But I don't want to and I'm tired"

"I don't care, you have to"

I grimaced, "why?"

"Because you need to graduate"

"What if I don't want to?" I smirked jokingly.

"Yeah, k, now get up!" she laughed, hitting me with a pillow as I jumped out of bed.

I feel better again today, I guess the space away kinda helped. I feel more up lift, energetic and happier, but I think that's because I've had too much sleep the last few days.