Destiel one shots

Fear

"Cas come on buddy", Cas heard Dean's voice as he smote Naomi, he was beyond angry, he was vengeful.

Naomi had tortured him, chased him messed with his head, had him kill Samandriel, and almost made him kill Dean, after having him kill one thousand facsimiles.

She had violated him, he is a very powerful angel and she violated him in the worst way possible.

"Come on Cas don't make any rash decisions", Dean's voice called and Cas closed his eyes, it was already done, he thought as Naomi lay dead at his feet.

"Come back to us, come back to me, I need you Cas", Dean called but Cas tried turning away from the voice, failing miserably.

"I can't Dean", Cas softly whispered, a tear slipping out, he can't go yet, he can't ever go back, Dean was always the reason for him to go back but now Dean is the only reason he can't back.

After he broke off the mind control he had leaned to heal Dean, and he saw Dean flinch away from him scared.

The fear in Dean's eyes broke Cas's heart, it was his worst nightmare, Dean flinching away from him.

"Cas don't make me do this", Dean finally voiced, Cas didn't take heed and prepared to fly when the most profound pain hit him.

It was pain, hurt, and sadness all in one and it made Cas crumble to the floor unable to move, Dean!, he thought, but he couldn't move.

"Cas! Dean is hurt", Sam called and that was it, Cas mustered all his strength and flew to the bunker stumbling a bit.

"Where is he?", Cas asked Sam through the pain which was subsiding slowly and Sam turned to see Dean alright.

Dean took a step forward making Cas step back, "Wha-?", Cas started but understood and got angry and in a blink slammed Sam to the wall.

"Are you out of your mind?", he asked threateningly and his eyes glowed lightly but Dean was immediately next to him.

"I made him call you Cas", Dean said touching Cas's arms softly, Cas immediately calmed and broke away not looking into Dean's eyes for the first time.

Of course, only Dean can share and make Cas feel things he wants, Cas still doesn't know how, but yeah Dean can do that, only Dean can.

And of course, Sam helped, he had known Cas's feelings and Dean's feelings for each other for some time now and he wanted them together.

"If you ever lie to me like that Samuel Winchester you will never see the daylight again", Cas warned and was going to fly away again when Dean held his hand.

"Stop flying away, I need to talk to you, and don't threaten him, it was my plan", Dean said willing Cas to turn, but still not letting Cas's arm.

"It was a stupid plan", Cas said and Dean winced at the tone, Cas took a step back again, he couldn't hurt Dean, he could never hurt Dean, even accidentally.

"Dean please let me go", Cas whispered and Sam slipped away leaving them alone, "No Cas, we need to talk", Dean said stepping closer to Cas and Cas closed his eyes.

"Why are you hiding from me? What were you doing just now? You didn't answer my call", Dean said.

"I was busy, I killed Naomi", Cas said answering one question and Dean gaped, "What? Why?", Dean asked.

"She violated me Dean, she made me kill-", Cas immediately stopped, "What exactly did she do Cas?", Dean asked and Cas shook his head.

"I can't Dean, please", Cas said, "You can't what Cas? You have been stepping away from me ever since you broke the connection, so you can't what Cas? You can't talk to me? You can't be in the same room with me?", Dean asked and Cas held Dean by his shoulder and slammed him into the wall softly.

"I can't hurt you anymore Dean, I can't even accidentally hurt you, I can't kill you again, I can't see the FEAR IN YOUR EYES WHEN YOU SEE ME, I'D RATHER DIE", Cas said shouting the last part.

"I have lived enough nightmares for a lifetime, however long that is for me, I don't want to live another", Cas said softly backing away.

"She made you see me dying?", Dean asked shocked leaning back on the wall for support, Cas shook his head and looked into Dean's eyes stepping back more.

"No, she made me kill you, not once, not twice, but a th...thousand times", Cas said his voice shaking and breathing hard due to anxiety.

"So that's what broke the connection isn't it?", Dean asked and Cas nodded, "That's also the reason I can't be here, I can't see you looking at me with fear in your eyes, that's one of worst nightmares", Cas said.

"What is the other?", Dean asked slowly standing on his own, "You hating me", Cas said looking away and Dean's breath caught up.

"Come here", Dean said softly extending his hand, Cas hesitated for a moment but the look in Dean's eyes made him take it and Dean pulled him closer leaning back on the wall.

He wrapped his arms around Cas's neck and Cas automatically wrapped his arm around Dean's waist with little space between them.

Their foreheads touched and Dean closed his eyes, "Do I mean that much to you?", he whispered and Cas smiled softly, breathing hard due to the close proximity.

"You mean the World to me, no you mean the Universe to me", Cas said and Dean chuckled and opened his eyes gazing into Cas's.

They were never good with words, not because they couldn't speak but because words weren't enough, it never was.

And their way of saying 'I love you' was this, everyone said I love you but no one said 'I need you' or 'I gave everything up for you'.

Dean has lived his entire life trying to be everything to everyone, and Dean will never admit to needing anyone because he'd never allow himself to appear weak.

But on his knees, he told Cas that he needed him. Dean really isn't much of a praying type, but he prays to Cas every night.

Cas has been alive for over a millennium, and he has known Dean for about a decade. Even though Dean's role in Cas' life might seem small like a mere credit in a movie, and yet to Cas, it holds enough power, influence, and significance to change the course of the storyline and shape the movie into what it is.

Dean hunts supernatural creatures, but he'll always try to save Cas, Cas isn't supposed to feel, but he loves Dean.

A man who doesn't enjoy flying, and an angel who doesn't enjoy falling, are both somehow stuck in the middle with each other.

Dean pulled Cas by the lapels and crashed their lips, "It's ok, I know you won't hurt me, I... I love you", he said in the kiss and Cas gasped and pulled Dean more into his arms.

"I love you too", he said peppering Dean with kisses and both smiled contentedly in the kiss, Sam took a pic without any noise and left quietly.

Finally, his brother got what he deserved and Sam was more than happy...