𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞 ·˚ ༘ BOOK 1 ✓

037 | forgiveness

normal : english
bold : korean
italics : japanese / thoughts

୨⎯ ##april 3rd , 2023 ⎯୧

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FIRST PERSON PERSPECTIVE ━━ KIMBERLY

DEAR DIARY,

Me and the others, as usual, went outside for our daily tasks as kpop idols. Of course, fans and paparazzis were outside the JYPE building and flashing pictures at all pf us. Which of course blinded us half way through getting to the car but we try too ignore it as much as possible.

But this time, instead of hate comments.. The fans actually seemed to like us now?.. Odd.. because ever since me and felix revealed we were dating.. We got hate for weeks.. Maybe even months. But now they seem to like us?

I mean, not that I hate it. It feels good to get some hate off my chest. I love our fans. Even if they hate us or not. They always have a place in my heart.

im glad they like us again. im glad they forgave us.

I saw my family a couple months ago. I forgot to mention it to you. It felt wonderful to see them again. It feels like it's been years since I've last seen them.. Well, it has been. It's been like... 3 years?? Maybe a little longer than that. But I'm glad they still remember me.

I still somehow miss dad. He was a dick but he still cared for us enough even when he was drunk. He was kinda scary when he was sober. I still don't really like him that much. But somewhere in my heart, deep down, i still have a soft spot for him.

I love my life the way it is now. Everything seems to be going well. I love my boyfriend. I love my family. I love my fans.
But somehow there's still a little hatred down deep in my body.

If my diary ever gets exposed to the whole world. I want my bullies to know one thing.
Look at me now. You told me i would get nowhere with my dreams. Well, dreams come true after all. And you lied to me. I hope you've learned your lesson somewhere in life.
And ill still keep living mine.

Ill try to write to you tommorow.
Toodles!

- xoxo,
kimberly.