rainbow Umbrella

9

We've been very busy for the past few days, we've been doing a lot of activites and the exam is tomorrow, who ba naman us to take a break right?

And if you're going to asked what is going on between me and Ainsleigh, all I can say is we are just friends, nothing has changed. We're friends, nothing special. Wala naman masyadong ginagawa ngayong araw, bukas na kasi ang exam at nag rereview nalang kami. Nag c-complete nalang din ng mga grades ang mga teachers sa mga may kulang ang activities.

I'm just sitting while reading the reviewer I made, I'm also lazy because I've been reviewing for a few days and I'm just about to memorized it. I stared at Ainsleigh who was at the door, he was talking to the girl who gave him a card. Honestly, that girl is always here, lagi niyang pinupuntahan si Ainsleigh at nag bibigay ito ng pagkain o kaya naman ay kung ano ano.

'if I was just his girlfriend, I would have slapped that girl.'

Nasanay nalang din siguro ako na lagi siyang andyan, minsan pa nga ay sumasabay sila sa aming mag lunch, ayaw kong maging rude but Im really not comfortable na nakakasalamuha ko sila. Binabawalan din naman siya ng lalaki,m pero makulit ata talaga si ate girl kaya hindi siya natitinag.

I saw how Ainsleigh eyes tightly closed and he went straight to me. I know he's annoyed. I smiled at him and tap the chair beside me.

"What happened?." I asked as he sat next to me.

"I'm not comfortable with what she's doing, I said that I already have a girlfriend as an excuse but she still pushes herself to me. I'm really pissed." He let out a deep breath.

I chuckled and started to pat his head, natutuwa dahil sa pagka irita ng mukha niya. 'Ang gwapo kahit na naiinis.'

"What are you going to do now?." I asked again. Then he gave me a shrug.

"I don't know, I'm not interested to be in a relationship right now." Saad nito

"Ayaw ko ng sagabal sa pag aaral." I gave him a fake smile.

Napaiwas ako ng tingin, alam ko namang walang chance na maging kami pero masakit pala kapag narinig ko mismo sa kanya galing ang mga salitang iyon. Hindi pa nga ako nag ta-try na umamin ay alam kong wala na akong pag asa.

"Just talk to her. Im sure she will understand that." Binigyan lang ako nito ng buntong hininga tsaka siya sumandal sa akin.

I really don't understand you, sweet ka sa akin pero parang ayaw mong lagyan ko ng meaning lahat ng ginagawa mong actions na nakakapagpa gulo at lunod sa akin. Ang hirap mang wag pansinin lahat ng ginagawa mo ay hindi ko magawa dahil lagi mo akong pinipilit hilahin pa ilalim. Parang ang hirap hirap maging sa'yo.

'Ang hirap mo namang kuhanin.'

That was our position until lunch break, he was still leaning on my shoulder, we didn't do anything today. Some teachers came in but they didn't stay longer because they said there was no problem with our grades. Then Elle decided to have lunch, she was chatting to our classmates in front a while ago. Then Ice came late today 'cause he's lazy.

"Kami na mag order, anong sa inyo?." Ice asked. Nagpa order nalang ako ng salad and iced coffee. After ibigay ni Elle ang order niya ay humanap naman kami ni Elle ng table.

"Okay ka lang?" Tanong ni Elle sa akin.

Nakaupo na kami ngayon at hinihintay nalang sila, medyo marami din ang students ngayon late na kasi kami lumabas para kumain.

"Im fine." Ngumiti pa ako.

"Sure? ang tamlay mo." She said

I just shrugged my shoulders, because I still couldn't get over from what Ainsleigh said, there was a part of me that hoped that maybe we could be together, maybe he could like me or maybe I could confess my feelings. I don't want to get my hopes up just because of his sweet gestures. I really don't know.