"Do you want a hug?." Umiiyak akong tumango sa kanya. Lumapit naman ito sa akin at niyakap ako, hinimas pa niya ang likod ko para mapatahan ako sa pag iyak.
'hindi man lang ako binigyan ng chance to confess my feelings.'
They already left a while ago, Ice saw me crying kaya nataranta ito. Kanina niya pa ako inaalo pero palakas lang ng palakas ang pag iyak ko. He didn't ask what happened between Me and Ainsleigh, he just hug and comforted me.
I sob as he wipe my tears from falling. "Do you feel better?." He softly asked.
I shooked my head, Im not okay. It hurts. It's my first time kaya medyo OA ang reaksyon ko. He silently nod and gave me another hug. Ganon lang ang ginawa niya sa nakalipas na ilang minuto. Finally at tumigil na din ang luha sa pag bagsak galing sa mata ko.
"Gusto mo na bang umuwi?." He gave me a smile as he slowly stroke my hair.
"Yes, please. Let me rest."
"Tara?." I nod as an answer. He got my bag at pinag open pa ako nito ng pinto na parang hindi ko kayang gawin.
Nasa labas na kami, sumunod lang ako sa kanya. Huminto ito sa BMW na puting kotse at pinag buksan ako ng pinto. Wala na ako sa ulirat na mag tanong pa kaya sumakay nalang ako. Sumakay na din naman siya pagkatapos niyang isara ang pinto. I was quiet the whole ride, when we got home I silently got out of the car, I thanked Ice for driving me home and for the accompany. Then I entered the house and went straight to the room.
'I shouldn't cry, but I can't stop my tears. It hurts.'
I buried my face in the pillow, It's already three pm in the afternoon, lunch break kami umuwi galing sa school, ang tagal ko din palang umiiyak. I'm just going to rest for a while, I have to review for the test tomorrow. I will cry later after reviewing. I have priorities.
'heart break ka lang, I have exams tomorrow.'
I was in that position for a few hours until I decided to take a shower, nothing will change even if I cry, he still thinks of me as a friend.
'bounce na me, he only thinks of me as a friend.'
After a few minutes of taking a shower and crying while taking a bath, I went out, put on some clothes and dried my hair. I can't cry anymore because I've been crying for a while now.
Kinuha ko ang mga notes ko tsaka ako nag simulang mag review. Parang wala atang pumapasok sa utak ko, dapat kasi ay hindi nalang ako nag tanong ng kung ano ano kanina. Edi sana ay maayos akong nag r-review ngayon.
I looked at the when I heard a knock. "Pasok po." I said and look back at my notes.
"Kain na, nak." It's Manang. I smiled as I look at her.
"Im not hungry pa po, baba nalang po ako when I feel hungry." Tumango naman ito tsaka marahan na sinara ang pintuan ko.
I started to review again, nag balikbalik pa ang mga pahina tsaka ako bumuntong hinga, even if I turned the pages back and fort wala paring pumapasok sa isip ko. Nag pahinga muna ako ng ilang minuto bago bumalik sa pag babasa. Mahapdi kasi ang mata ko sa pag iyak kanina kaya siguro tinatamad din ako. Mabuti nalang at hindi nag tanong si Manang dahil halata ang pamamaga ng mata ko, pero kahit mag tanong siya ay hindi ko naman pwedeng sabihin na nireject ako ni Ainsleigh kahit na hindi pa naman ako umaamin.
After an hour I read my notes again, I tried to understand that because it's nedded. I need to review to have a higher grade. A few hours had passed before I decided to go to sleep, Im so sleepy. All I know is that I was staring at the ceiling before I fell asleep.
