Rainbow Umbrella

6

In the past few days I distance my self to him, I don't know when I fell but now Im drowning. I don't know if I'm assuming things or what, but staying away is the most effective thing to do right now.

'pano ba maka ahon sa pagka lunod?'

A lot things happened in the just a few days, I've been avoiding him for a few days now and thankfully our reporting is over. Hindi na din kami nag kakasama sa iisang group and Im very thankful with that.

Nakikisama naman sa akin ang panahon dahil tuwing lalapit siya sa akin ay busy ako minsan naman ay pinapatawag sa faculty o kaya naman ay may ibang pinapagawa sa akin. Ayon nalang din ang pinag papasalamat ko dahil hindi niya napapansin na umiiwas ako o baka ako lang ang nag aakala non.

About the hair tie, he still wears it. he is always with sophia. maybe they are dating now? I don't really care, If that's what he wants.

'Pero nasasaktan'

We have also been busy because we're focusing on thesis, we already started doing it, it was fun to work with my group mates and I was able to get closer to my classmates. Elle, Ice, Ainsleigh and I are not in a same group. Pinag hihiwalay ata talaga kaming apat.

"kunot nanaman noo mo." we're now eating here in the cafeteria, lunch na kasi at inaayos ko ang ginawa namin sa PR. Naiinis ako kahit na sa kaunting bagay lang.

"Im a bit tired, now is the deadline of these. Im exhausted too." I complained as I lifted the paper and showed it to her.

"Buhay studyante nga naman, hayaan mo bibili kitang kape later." she said to lighten up my mood.

"Thank you." I said as I continue to fix our papers. Sometimes coffee can lighten up our moods.

"Buti nalang at hindi ka nahihirapan sa mga ka group mates mo no?." Tumango tango pa ako, nakikipag cooperate naman kasi silang lahat. Kapag nabigyan mo sila ng gagawin ay agad nila 'yon ginagawa and pinapasa on time.

After I checked and arranged our papers, I rested my back on the chair. Tinuloy ko na din ang pagkain ko pero ilang subo palang ay parang wala na akong gana.

"Iniiwasan mo ba si Ainsleigh?." kunot noo ko siyang tinignan. Pati pala siya nahahalata niya

"Why? Is it obvious ba?." I asked worriedly

She nodded, I sigh and pouted. I just want to have a peaceful mind. It was his fault naman kung bakit ako umiiwas. It's my fault too, i know.

"Nag tanong kasi sakin kanina." Doon na napukaw ang atensyon ko at binigyan siya ng pansin.

"huh? why? what did he say?" gagad na tanong ko.

She shrugged "Malamang teh iniiwasan mo 'yung tao, tsaka hindi naman manhid 'yon para hindi mahalata." I thought he's not aware that Im avoiding him. Natahimik tuloy ako.

"Pano ba naman kasing hindi niya mapapansin, kapag nag tatanong 'yung tao bigla kang mag dadahilan na may pupuntahan. Kapag alam mong lalapit bigla kang makikipag usap sa kahit sino, kapag naman gusto makipag group sa'yo bigla kang sasali sa ibang group na may kulang para iwasan siya." Tikom lang ang bibig ko dahil totoo naman ang sinasabi niya.

"I just don't want to get close to him, you know how much I like him and it's hurting me sometimes." I explained.

"Wala naman ngang masama don, ang kaso lang teh, halatang halata ka." She has a point.

"I just assumed that maybe he likes me too, sometimes kasi he's acting weird or sweet with me, pero ganon din naman siya sa iba. I just don't know how to act when Im jealous." I pouted and rested my head on the table. Tinabi ko na din sa gilid ang pagkain na hindi ko naubos.