Rivals

Part 50

Sid's pov

pilot's voice of arrival woke me up from my thoughts. then, I realized that whole way for straight 4 & half hour I was lost in my own thoughts of my life of 19 years. I was living my those 19 years of life in these hours only. some were geed, some were bad, some where bitter & some were the best of my life. In this process I got to know where I got the most wrong . I clear my tears which were unknowingly flowing  from my eyes. I don't know how long but when I turn after getting up from my seat, my sight fall on her pair of doe eyes which were looking at me with a moist texture. But when I tired to search for more details in her deep eyes she turn over from my sight. I saw Aayann talking & holding her . He took her with him for my un liking. at that moment my inner voice shout on me. I realized that what I had loss. we were together in same space but far from each other place. we were together in trip but not together in life.

 Duriya dil-loh ki ish kadar badi thi ki......;

wo pass mere betha tha par mera na tha....;

I had loss my precious gift from god with my own fault. I was so lost on my own thinking that,  I  didn't got to know that she was looking at me. But from how long. I saw her moist eyes. is she crying for us?? Is she thinking about us??? I feel like her emotion was for me. she was thinking about us. Is it really late for us???? Can I try for more???  she was looking at me. did her eyes were moist for me??? Does she still care for me , for us ??? Does she still feels for me, for my emotion??? I was again lost in my thought when kushal's voice of calling me caught my attention. I turn around to see that I was the last person only in jet. I move out & walk towards the cars which were waiting for us. I want to sit with her but seeing 2 cabs & one car on a row ,my thoughts flow with the waters. But when I saw the sitting arrangement a little bit hope cross my mind. there were 3 cars where 2 were small cabs  & one big was Prado. Shefali, Meethi & mahi were seated on one car where vikash, jay.kushal was on another.. both cars were full. only Zoya, Aayaan, shehnaaz & I were left behind . they  asked 2 cabs to move forwards when we will wait for the 3rd. yes!! they had called 3 cabs but for my luck 1 was broken on the way. now we were confused whether to claim or not. Shehnaaz  had already taken passenger seat & we three left for back seat. zoya signal for me to take seat first in . confusingly I got seated from where I can get a proper view of her. later we I saw zoya tight hold on Ayaan's hand I got her intention. whole way I was snatching some glance of her & on the other side, Zoya was full on mood to trying to tame her love. 

pov end

shehnaaz's pov

I can feel his gaze on me from the time they landed on me in living room. I know what they were thinking while we ( me & Ayaan were playing like that but only we know what is the truth. we were best friends & living with each other from very long time. He was my emotional & moral support during the time. we seriously had a close relation . I feel safe & comfort with him like family but I don't find it to share with them nor clear their misconception. I know it was hurting him & that what I want, Tit for Tat. Hurt for Hurt. Ayaan also wanted to hurt Zoya for his own reason. May be he doesn't like her getting married with Sid in anger. so, we didn't clarify our poster as  we didn't find it to be needed as they were no one to us whom we had to explain our closeness. they were already married but their hurtful look seeing us together..., we didn't get it. their burning gaze where making holes on us. 

His hurtful eyes were seeking it to be other way. His burning red eyes were seeking for it to be anything but closeness which I ignored. They were still on me when I was with Ayaan's mom & was linger on me until we took separate cars. 

we again cross our path in entrance where he asked about my moving on which I bravely reply with full confidence in my voice, attitude in my body language but my heart betray me.

yaad mein teri aakhe bhrta hein kohi

haar saas mein tujhey yaad karta hein khoi

maut to sachi hi aani hein ek din

lekein teri judai mein her roz marta hein kohi....: 

It pained my heart & make my eyes teary. I feel betrayed by my own heart which still think about him, feel for him. I secretly wipe my tears before it will flow. I move towards washroom to hide from all as I didn't want & had intention to show it to others , to that person who was someone else.  I came out when Pilot announce of take off. I took my seat where Ayaan had reserve for me. Aayaan was beside me & Zoya who has deliberately took seat next to him.  meethi & vikas was next to us. I turn to find I got seat opposite from him. It was a personal jet. I can see him clearly. Ayaan  was trying ignore Zoya who was trying to talk with him every possible way. She was trying to be cozy with him which I don't know why I didn't mind . But the thing catch my attention was his face , his hurtful gaze, his teary eyes & painful smile at me.

whole way till landing I was looking at him, who was lost in his own thoughts. Looking his expression which was sometimes sad, sometimes happy & sometimes bitter, crunch my heart. I guess he was thinking  about our past. Seeing his tears flowing from that eyes which used to be my clam place. My eyes betray me & tears start flowing along with him. Leaving a going drama next to me, My all focus was on him. I didn't even blink my eyes from him.  

pilot's voice shatter his thoughts & bring him back from his past to present. He wiped his tears thinking no one has seen him. but I did & was looking at him all the way. I also clear my face wiping all tears. I was noticing his action when suddenly his eyes fall on me. It shiver me looking his vulnerable state. But before he catch my emotions I turn around & leave him alone .

 By chance we got in a same car. I took passenger to ignore him  but more my emotion for him. I know it will be hard when he is around. I was seat, pretending like I'm all alone but can feel his eyes on me. Whole way he was looking at me. He was sitting on a corner beside Zoya. But Aayaan & Zoya whisper also caught my attention. I wanted to turn & look for Ayaan whom I leave behind with his ex who is someone's wife now. How can I be careless??? I wanted to change my seat with him but thinking it to be some more time , I leave it with the feeling of asking him after reaching our destination. Now my all focus was to avoid his presence in same car. And finally we reached after a long hour travelling.