Rivals

Part 57

Shehnaaz was crying under the shower . flashback of past were playing in her mind. simple reminder of the past brought back her nightmare. how much she wished it to be only dream . But the reality was different. She keeps crying & crying.

Siddharth who came after her didn't find her in room. He search her in every corner & terrence but didn't find her. at last the sound of water running caught his attention. He knock at door but didn't get response. He also call her for many times but didn't get her . But he knew he will get her there only.  He slightly open the door to look for her but what he saw makes him panic. He rush towards her & tightly embraced her. Her hiccups took his breath. His heart broken to see her broken. 

He Patted her cheeks to bring her back. She look at him with tearful eyes. His heart broke in thousand pieces. she was loss on her own thinking. He called her in a low tone . She came back in her sense to realize what position they where. She tried to step away but her foot sleep , cause him to tighten herself into him. She again try to walk away but her own leg betray her. He carry her in his arms & Place her near her closest, bring her towel &  some clothes & asked to change.  She asked him to leave . He leave " I will be outside .call be if you need anything ."

" I don't need you nor your help" she reply in rude tone.

" change before you caught cold." he said from outside. She look her broken shade in mirror. She can't look weak.She wipe her body & hair . She changed her dress & came out to find his sitting on her bed. She was not shocked to find him there.

" Haven't you leave" Her tune was so much rude to be true. But Ignoring her rudeness, He softly smile at her & shake his head. She shake her head in disbelief. " What do you want???" She asked crossing her and in her chest.

" You" He said with so much love that for a second she forget that she have to be tuff.

" oh " she said while coming close to him . she start unbuttoning her dress looking at his eyes. At first, He was at lost so lost in her eyes at he didn't notice what she was doing but later his eyes caught her action.

" What are you doing ???" He asked.

"Things you wanted from me." She said without blinking her eyes. She was so lack of any emotion. 

" & what I want from you??" He asked in confusion.

" Sexual pleasure " Her word shocked him. For a moment he was being statue that what was doing around. 

" Huh??" He was so lost to answer.

" I think, last time we met ,you told me this is the only thing you want from me ." with this she let her dress go down her knees. He was so shocked with her words that he didn't even get when she loose her dress from her body. " What are you waiting for ??? come . Finished your hunger & get out ." She was about to lie in bed for him when he cover her with her shirt.

" The only thing I want from you is you, whole you ." He tried to make her were her dress but she push it back to him. He was on the edge of losing his mind  He had tried to be patience with her but her each action raise his temper. 

" Cut your drama. we both know . you only want this" Saying so she lie on bet & try to push her pant.He knew where it coming from but he didn't mean what he had said at that time. He only wanted her to hate him that he forget what it will cause her. How much it will hamper her mental health. He was regretting each word he had used years back.

" Please" he hold her hand when she again try to push hard. " I want to only talk with you. ...please wear your dress" He hand her her dress but she again stubbornly throw it. "Shehnaaz." He yell her name . She again ty to push her pant but this time   He hold her hand above her head ." Now listen to me very carefully ." He place duvet on her body. " I never meant those words." She tried to protest but his next word freezed her. " I loved you ...., I love you... it was never lust. I only said those mean words to make you hate me.... Make you leave me. & trust me when I said I did that only for you... For your own good. I was saving you from that hell ...... But unfortunately I pushed you in another one." He caressing her cheek with love. Both were looking at each other eyes. She can find truth on his word. She tried search for hesitation & lie in his eyes but couldn't find it .

" Dad wanted to make you life hell. He threaten me. I didn't have any other option. I can't distroy your life. so, I have to make you hate me. I thought it will be better than to torture you. " He close his eyes & tear skipped from his eyes. ".....he.... he wanted me to torture you enough to make you kill yourself." His tears broke her heart but She doesn't want to forgave him . not so easily. She loss her youth, family , life in those years. She can't forget it.

"  & you did" he look at her in confusion. " He asked you to make me kill myself & you succeed. I may not physically dead but  you were succeed to kill me mentally & emotionally." Her words crunch his heart. " Congratulation Mr. Khan you succeed to kill Shehnaaz Sheikh. Now go & celebrate your success with someone else." She push him from bed.

" Shehnaaz... jaan " He tried to touch her but he step away like his touch will burn her. He doesn't like it but he can't do anything.

" Touch touch me.." She shout at him. " Your touch disgust me." She close her eyes & said those words with stone heart. 

" What??" He asked in shocked. " My touch disgust you???"  He can't digest the fact that the girl who used to love his touch , fell safe with his mere presence , disgust his gesture.

" Get out." She said in low tone. She knew He was hurt with her words. AND that what she want but why her heart was also broking with his each broken piece???/

." I'm sorry" Tears flow from his eyes & each drop pinch her heart like needles were poking at her. He was so hurt that he without any other word left from her room.  She cried hard with his leaving.