Rivals

Part 2

Sana sitting in a study room writing some her emotions & thoughts in a dairy named "my untold stories" with lots of emotion & broken heart in full of tears. Even pages can be seen wetted by tears drops. She was on her breakdown point when her phone rings which makes her come out from the thought zone.

Screen id display name 'ammi' which gives her strength to fight with this heartbreaking emotion. She wiped her tears & drink a glass of water placed near the table & prepared herself to be normal that she doesn't get to know her feelings. She unwantedly smile with the thought that there is some one who called her to take back from the broken past. She pick the phone & greet her & chat like nothing happen, she is happy with life & disconnect the call after some time

Shehnaaz

Today, it almost been 19 years that I had lost him somewhere in that dark incident of past which was a nightmare for me. Only I know how hardly I have handle myself after that incident. It was a verge of death for me. No actually a death of  my soul, just my body was alive. I'm breathing without a live, living without a emotion.

Earlier I was so chubby, bubbly, carefree, loveable, friendly & frankly but now this is total new version of me which I hate the most. Ya! I hate myself, the person who I am today is totally different then the shehnaaz  I was. Now I turned out to be an introvert who like to stay in herself. I become ruthless, passionate, possessive for what's mine. I have completely changed myself from the past.

After that day when I loss my most loving people, I have realized one thing that life never stop, it moves on with the broken pieces. It doesn't wait for anyone, not even for you to cure yourself. People comes & go out of your life, nothing is permanent, not even your dream, family, friends, love & life. Every single individual leave your side when they played their roles for you. We just have to accept that fact & move on with the life which is no longer being a life. If you get stock at one point, then it will get difficult to live, like my mother & her father. I don't know how is he but hope for his better health. I know that he is the one who suffer as equal as my family.

My mom, reason of my strength who pretend to be the strongest one but I know she is equally heart broken as me . or maybe more then me because in that incident she is the one who was in big loss. But she played tough to fightback. Ya for some initial year its being tough for her but I never let her down. Now she is the most heartless women who doesn't have emotion for anyone but I know the truth.

My dad, reason of my living who is verge of death lying lifeless in a bed pinned with pipe in whole body. He was struggling for his life to live for us, to gives us hope that, one day everything will be perfectly fine. Will it be??

I have seen my mom crying for me & my dad, seeing us in a verge of death . That day I decided to live my life.... My new life. I promised her that, I will never let her cry after that & I haven't till date. Now she is proud on me & the only reason she ever smile is for me only.

For 19 years, I hide myself from the world & work like a robot & bring my company on the top of business world which was my first success in life. I change my name, my personality for the world. This new version of me was totally a new person for all. And I loving this version of me because there's no one who can beat me, hurt me & leave me since I break all the relation & expectations and create a wall around me.

Today, if my past ever meet me I can easily cross my path, without letting them know I am the same person they ever know in their life.
After the 4 successful year of leap, I join my university for further education or for a degree & qualifications with new identity. I have my new life now with success & qualifications. I'm the new sensation of business world. Now I m ready to face it all. Am I ready???