If I Can't Have Him...

Hadn't thought of that

Jimin walked into the apartment and sighed as he kicked his shoes off and made his way to his room. He didn't know how to comfort Yoongi through all of this, but he knew Jeongguk would take care of him. He thought their relationship was a little odd but didn't comment on it. And maybe it wasn't necessarily odd. Maybe it was just Jimin being a jealous best friend. 

Yoongi and Felix had included him in a lot of things, but they also cut him out of a lot of things. Which was fine, totally normal. Jimin is an adult, and he doesn't need to be with his best friend 24/7, and he could acknowledge that and respect that. Eventually, one of them was bound to settle down, and they'd stop being roommates, and he knew that when they were younger, he isn't too bothered by it now. 

And then Jeongguk showed up out of fucking nowhere and Yoongi was once again cutting Jimin out of things. He thought Jeongguk coming back meant he'd be getting his old friend back, but his best friend slipped and fell on his dick and now he didn't have Jeongguk to fill the void either. He wasn't interested in either of them romantically, but he still yearned for their attention and some of their time. But, he was still happy for them. He'd never seen Yoongi as loved or as happy as he is with Jeongguk, and as his best friend that's all he could ever ask for. 

He sighed as he changed into his lounge clothes, at least he had Taehyung. 

When Jimin met Taehyung, his heart stopped for a second, and he knows that sounds dramatic but it really was a full body reaction and he almost checked his blood pressure. 

Taehyung walked into the ER one day wearing pink scrubs that stuck to his skin, and his black hair wavy hanging over his brows, his tan sun kissed skin vibrant against the pink and when he looked at Jimin with those mismatched eyes Jimin was a goner. 

They'd flirted for months, bordering a year. And one night, when rounds were done and no new patients had been rushed in, he was walking down the hallway when long fingers pulled him into a janitor closet and thin lips pressed against his plump ones. 

“Been wanting to do that for so long” Taehyung confessed in a whisper against his spit slicked lips 

“Me too” he smiled wide and pulled him back in 

Eventually their stolen kisses grew into more, and one day Taehyung had Jimin bent over the workbench panting and holding on for his life as he railed into him from behind. Jimin saw stars when he came undone and swore Taehyung was the best lay he'd ever had. 

A few more secret meetings in the closet turned into texting, to phone calls, to an intimate dinner at Tae's and eventually a cute hand holding date in a museum where he listened to Taehyung's deep voice explain everything and his heart did that thing again in his chest. 

Jimin walked out of his room feeling refreshed in his baggy clothes and grabbed a bottle of wine from the cabinet with two wine glasses and set them up on the coffee table in the living room for him and Tae to enjoy. He had asked Taehyung to come over so he could vent, and Taehyung was eager to say yes. Jimin also hyped himself up enough to ask Taehyung to be official. To put a label on the things they were doing, he respected Tae's wish to take it slow, but they could do that while knowing where they stood to one another. 

The knock at the door pulled him from his thoughts and he smiled as he opened it “hey” 

“Hi Jiminie” Taehyung beamed “I brought fried food, I figured you'd need it after today” 

“Have I told you how amazing you are?” He chuckled as he opened the door wider and motioned for him to come in 

“Not nearly enough” he teased as he took his shoes off and walked into the apartment, he sat the food down on the table and flopped down onto the couch, one arm rested on the armrest and the other was sprawled open waiting for Jimin to take his spot. Jimin shut the door and curled up alongside him, enjoying himself as Taehyung held him close  

Like this, he could pretend that everything was fine. 

The two of them eventually moved to set out the food and began eating, conversation stayed light for the most part, but then Taehyung broached the subject of the funeral “how was it? Was Yoongi okay?” 

And it segued into Jimin telling him everything, including what he hadn't told Yoongi. He wasn't hiding it from his best friend, he'd never hide anything from him. But he had been called into the station two days after Yoongi had warned him that it was a possibility. He was cooperative, gave the detective his honest answers, and told nothing but the truth, which was everything he had told Yoongi. 

He was nervous though, because it had happened after Felix was found murdered and even though he wasn't a suspect and the detective believed him he still had to offer up his fingerprints and a DNA sample. It was a little unsettling, but he didn't have anything to worry about. The only reason Yoongi didn't know that he had been called in was because Yoongi had too much going on. 

And even though Jeongguk was doing a good job at keeping him from going off the deep end, Jimin could see the way Yoongi ate less, slept less, talked less, and worked less. He didn't want his best friend to have to worry about him for a second, and he didn't want to spend whatever time they had together to be filled with worry and more nerves. 

“It's brought up some old trauma though, and I wonder if Yoongi or Jeongguk is feeling the same” 

“What past trauma?” Tae asked as he lifted the empty boxes and took them to the trash 

“When we were younger two of our classmates were murdered” he shrugged “I don't know if their cases were ever solved or not. And it just..I get chills just thinking about it. You know? Like how fucking weird is that?” 

Tae came back to the couch and sat close to Jimin, he rested his chin on his fist with his elbow on his knee and his other hand held his wine glass as he swirled it around lost in thought “were these classmates close to Yoongi?” 

“Yeah, Seonghwa shared his lunches with Yoongi, and Bogum had asked Yoongi to be his boyfriend"

“Hmm” he looked over at Jimin for a second “did you ever think it could be Jeongguk?” 

No. He hadn't. 

Short one at the moment, but I've got another one close behind 🤭