The Closer I Get To You

MASERATI

One more day, that's what she kept on thinking as she watched Ann sleep, tucked-in beside her. It's her last day in the Philippines and she's going back to Thailand.

She's been doing great at blocking the thought, but this time she couldn't help it. It's almost time for her to go back and she was dreading it because her girlfriend was going back to see him in Phuket.

Ann knew it too, but maybe she was better than her for not overthinking things that might happen on their vacation. Her mind was going over the edge. She could beg her not to go and if she could just be with her, but Ann had said she needed to return the thing to him.

"Why are you up so early?" asked Ann, her eyes still closed, a small smile painted on her lips.

"How'd you know I'm awake?" She replied, pulling her naked body closer to her.

Shaking her head, "because your breathing changed, and I could feel your heart beating faster than when you're asleep."

Ann burrowed her head on Michelle's neck as she felt her girlfriend's lips on her forehead. Still tired and deliciously sore from last night. It was a night to remember not because of the sex but because how she took care of her, made her feel so loved.

"I just don't want to waste more time sleeping and not spend it with you. Honestly, I'd rather lose some sleep and watch you." She swallowed, eyes boring into Ann's face. "You're leaving me again soon, and I already miss you."

Those words made Ann flutter her eyes open. Her gaze went straight to her girlfriend's face, meeting her sad pair of brown orbs. Michelle heaved a heavy sigh.

"Don't worry, I won't ask you not to meet him." She almost winced at the slight pain that shot through her chest, but she's good at masking her emotions.

But Ann could see through her. How she clenched and unclenched her jaw, the glimmer in her eyes turned stormy, and she hated that once again, she was the reason for it. Though she knew Michelle would never ask that of her, still, it pained her to see her like this.

Michelle had said she doesn't do long-distance relationships. It was hard enough that they couldn't be together all the time, and in a situation like this? It scared her to find out how long Michelle could hold on to them.

What if she gets tired? What if she couldn't wait for her anymore? And what if Michelle breaks up with her? The thought alone felt like all the air was leaving her lungs.

Her heart started pounding on her ribcage like it would leap out of her chest. She wrapped her arm tightly around her midsection. She wanted to cry, but she didn't want to voice her fears out for now. They should have the best time, and she won't let her last day with her be sad.

"Can we please not think or talk about that, baby? I don't want to ruin our moment." She pouted. "Could you please just focus on me?"

That got the short-haired girl to chuckle, not being able to resist her pout and her adorable puppy dog eyes. "My focus is always on you."

Anntonia smiled, a smile that Michelle knew reserved only for her. Where her cheeks bunching up, and a shy smile painted on her lips. The girl lifted her hand and drew her index finger, starting on her forehead so she could take away the crease, then to her eyebrows to stop it from furrowing then down to her nose.

Her thumb traced her pink, kissable lips that she only allowed to touch each part of her body. She watched as her girlfriend closed her eyes, feeling a sense of calmness from Anntonia's touches.

"Feeling better now, baby?" she asked, brushing her thumb over her cheek.

Michelle slowly opened her eyes, feeling the worries disappeared from her mind. Anntonia always had the power to do that.