To Put On An Act [bxb]

Chapter 26 - THE BITTER END / fin

It was over.

Alex should've felt so damn good about this. He was an asshole after all, an absolute piece of shit, and all he wanted was to annoy his ex and be petty and shitty because he was like that, and she deserved it.

And now Alex had fallen in love. He rolled around on his bed, on his back as he stared at his phone, about to text Youngbin what had happened yesterday. About how he talked to Leia and they were actually kind of on okay terms and how he got what he wanted but actually felt bad for it. How their deal had been fulfilled. He really didn't want to tell him though. If he did, then-

Alex was aware that at some point the whole thing was going to be over. That they couldn't go on pretending forever. It was part of the plan, actually, that Youngbin could dump Alex in the end and seem super cool and independent. Needless to say, Alex didn't want it to end.

But going on and pretending like Youngbin and him were actually a thing, not only pretending in front of others but pretending in front of himself, it felt horrible. He'd just be using Youngbin, wouldn't he? He'd be using him to feel less lonely. To feed into his delusion of being loved. He'd be living in a one sided relationship that Youngbin absolutely hadn't consented to in that way.

But Alex was meant to be an asshole. A piece of shit that used people for his own good. According to- many. He sighed. Fuck that.

» i talked to leia

great news she totally believes were real and is in fact super mad about it

she hates us! or like she hates me actually but whats new

anyways id say we are very successful «

» You talked to her?

How come «

» idk she just wanted to tell me that shes moving away soon

uh

i guess we like

kinda

made up????

i mean no not really made up but we talked a bit without like killing eachother and shit

and actually i maybe. feel like kinda bad for tricking her and targeting her and like doing all that shit specifically to hurt her and upset her and maybeeee im kinda an asshole but also

whats new

well. yea thats the news «

» Oh

Well to be honest it was kind of horrible of us to just kiss in front of her and all that «

» which was something you suggested

twice might i add «

» Yeah.......

That wasn't my proudest moment I think but also I generally don't really know what I was thinking with that kissing stuff «

Alex could tell. He inhaled sharply as if the memory of it was hurting him, then watched as the next message appeared on screen. He knew that this was coming. His heart dropped regardless.