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i looked at you like a doormat that said WELCOME HOME and you treated me like a neon sign that read ONE NIGHT ONLY

the nights we used to spend together felt like the only religion i withheld, but awaking to your absence was merely the leftover hell

i used to graffiti the words JUST FRIENDS along the house we enclosed ourselves in, but you'd always punch through the walls before the ink could even dry

i might as well have changed my number to 911, because you only called me when you had an emergency, and it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair that you could waste your hours talking on the phone with other girls from the past whilst i laid alone thinking about our future

each time i'd run away from you, i'd be sprinting back in your direction before you could even come looking for me, and i know that i promised i'd never give up on you but i just find no purpose in staying for someone who's already given up on me

i never needed a gps to find the good in you, but lately, i have grasped at every map i can get

and i know my skeleton is pleading for me not to return to someone who's bones are more rotten than mine, but sometimes, i wish i hadn't learned literacy so that i could never see you tell me goodbye