oh lord when you are alone and do not want to be, you lie in bed with your own shoulder wrapped around and beneath yourself so the surges of pain keep you company. this is hurtful but it is so much better than no nerves firing at all. the worst is when there's no one near to press on you and make dents in your skin with their finger nails. you are left running your hands all over yourself, biting trying and experimenting to create sensations. the enormous feelings you make prove to yourself that you create great excitement.
