and for the first time in my life,
i feel loved.
it is suffocating me
because i dont know what i want
theres pink
she is everything i need
everything i want
close
warm
soft and sweet like my
strawberry milk
and she loves me
theres blue
shes always been there for me
i could never thank her enough
it feels new
weird
i feel terrible
like im ignoring her
im just confused
and theres orange
she is autumn
she is the leaves falling
and she is the pumpkin spice
latte were sharing under a blanket
and she loves me
but i dont feel anything
i feel numb
i feel dead
i feel lonely
i feel i feel i feel
i just dont know
and now its unfair to everyone
because i dont want to be that
girl
but i wish there was a magic 8
ball here or a fortune teller to tell
me what im feeling because i need
a sign i need something i need someone
to tell me what i am feeling because
i cant for myself
.
