Saffire

34

Two weeks later

Zander Pov

"You ready?" Talia ask looking at me.

"Yes." I reply taking a deep breath.

I button my shirt then put on my chain. Next to me is Zues chain and I rub my hand over it.

Today is the day Zues will be laid to rest. If anything he should have been planning my funeral and not the other way around.

"I don't think I can do this Zander, I can't watch my boyfriend be buried." Talia says crying.

I pull her into a hug while rubbing her head. She seems better today than how she was before.

"I don't know how you both were as a couple but I do know he must have loved the fuck out of you if he almost went to jail for you."

She looks at me and give a half smile.

"I'm sorry we lied to you. Thank you for not being upset about it."

"I was upset but I'm glad it was him and not some punk. Besides your not pregnant or anything so it's okay." I reply looking over at Saffire walking in.

I have not seen her since the night in my house. We almost had sex but then I felt dizzy and asked her to leave.

I wanted to fuck the shit out of her and I felt so weak which I didn't want her to know. I have a lovely hate relationship with her, it's like when I'm around her I can't keep my hands to myself but once she is away I hate the fuck out of her.

She looks good. She is in a black dress that shows off her curves and compliments her real good. I notice a few guys looking at her every second.

"I'll see you inside Talia and remember I always have your back." She nods and I walk away towards the door.

Before I can reach to Saffire DaDa step out Infront of me. If pussy block was a person right now. I watch as Saffire walk inside the church.

"Wah gwaan Zander, weh Stappa?" DaDa ask bumping our fist.

"See me yah mon."

"Ready fi get this day over" I reply walking Infront of them.

The three of us walk inside the church and I can feel eyes on me from every angle. The church is packed to it's capacity and more. Zues was loved by many and hated by all.

It sounds crazy but that's the truth. He got along with everyone but he was not afraid to make enemies. The enemies were too afraid to hurt him so they kept it cool.

DaDa, Stappa and myself is in full white which is Zues favourite colour. I told him years ago that it was a shade but he insisted it was a colour. Told him I will never wear full white but look at me now.

I have security all over the church to make sure my family is safe. A few police cars and soldier are present as well.

We take our seats at the front of the church and the pastor begin.

We are gathered here today for a sad occasion. We are about to lay our brother, son and friend to rest.

I feel numb and powerless watching them lower Zues in the ground.

"No, Zues, you can't do this to me babes. You can't leave me." Talia scream while holding on to the casket.

"Jesus bring him back. Him a me first pickney, wioiii me son."

His mother is on the ground crying while his younger brother is looking on with anger in his eyes.

When I called them to tell them that Zues died, I could feel their anger afterwards and I felt like crap.

They don't deserve being in pain because of me. Everything is because of me. People die because of me and going through heartbreak because of me.

I hate seeing Talia like this but there is nothing much I can do. After tonight I'm checking her into a rehab facility to ensure she gets some help.

The pastor hand the mike over to me for me to say my last words then we can leave.

"Zues was never big on speach and neither am I. We a come from far, hungry days and no shoes to millions and too much shoes. Me shouldn't a talk over him casket but a just one a them things deh weh cyah change. If you knew Zues you know him celebrate the entire month of may as his birthday when him born on the 20th. This a fi u strong Zues, Load up the bullets them."

"21 gun salut ina this bloodclaat. Sorry pastor." DaDa shout as they do the gun salute.

A few minutes later we release the white doves and watch as they fly away.

Never in a million years did I picture myself standing without Zues. Guess you have to brace for the unexpected.

I walk to my car and detective Derby is leaning on it.

He has a paper in his hand and a stupid smile on his face. I sigh before pulling out my car keys.

"We keep meeting like this Mr Gallo, I'm beginning to think we have some sort of connection going on."

"Get off my car."

He step aside still smiling.

One thing is for certain I don't like being annoyed and I'm done playing with this detective.

Zues has finally been layed to rest so I can go about my business.

"Aren't you curious to know what's in my hand?" He ask still chewing the gum.

"Not interested but your going to tell me anyway."

"Well I'll tell you anyway ofcourse. This paper contains a DNA sample from someone else other than Abby. That means I get to test your blood and Zues's.

He laughs then walk away towards his car.

I open my car door and slam it shut hard. I keep hitting the car when I feel light headed.

There is a knock on my car window and I open my eyes and see Saffire looking at me with a puzzled look on her face.

"I want to find out if your okay."

"I'm good. Haven't slept properly in weeks so I'm just tired. I'll see you around."

I start the engine and head to my doctor's place.