I didn't give you my consent | Station 19

6 - Shower it off

"Mila, what's wrong? Are you okay? wait, let me hold your hair."

Miranda held my hair up and I threw up a second time. Carina quickly fetched a water bottle she had in her handbag and put it next to me:

"Here, for you. Are you feeling dizzy or are you in pain?"

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"No, I'm not in pain, I don't know why I threw up. I suddenly felt sick but everything is fine now. Sorry."

I picked up the water bottle and took a few sips from it.

"I'll check you after the shower if that's okay with you, but I think it must have been the stress that fell off and twisted your stomach."

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"I think so too."

I stood up again with the help of the two of them and took another sip of the water. Miranda went back to the boxes and Carina pointed to the showers:

"come on, let's get you showered, then you can rest"

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"Yes, that would probably be best, thanks"

I went to a shower cubicle and stood in it, while Carina stood before it's curtain:

"I need to get my shower gel and shampoo from the locker."

I was about to leave the shower cubicle when Carina stopped me:

"Let me get your clothes and a towel, you can start showering off, okay?"

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"Thanks, my locker is two to the right of Maya's."

Carina pulled the curtain closed and I took off my hospital gown to throw it in front of the shower. I looked at my now naked body and started to shake a little, I quickly looked up and tried to cover myself from my eyes. I felt ao strange, it felt like it wasn't my body but someone else's

I turned on the water and stood under the shower head. I couldn't move, I just stood there, looked at the wall and let the water bounce off me.

The door to the washroom opened again and Carina came to my cubicle with my shower things:

"Mila, do you want me to put them outside the shower or hand them to you for a moment? I won't look, your privacy is important to me and I want you to know that."

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"I can't move Carina."

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"What do you mean? Did you hurt yourself? Did you fall?"

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"No, I just can't move, I can't look at myself, I don't know how to do this right now, I don't feel like me"

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"Mila, we'll take it one step at a time and get there, okay?"

I only squeezed out a 'mhm' in agreement and managed to turn slightly towards the opening of the curtain. I heard Carina putting my shampoo and shower gel on the floor and hanging up my towel:

"Have you wet your hair yet?"

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"A little, not quite yet, but a little."

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"That's great, can you stand a little further under the shower and get it completely wet? We can talk about other things in the meantime or I can tell you something funny if you like"

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"Okay, I'll stand under it."

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"Perfect, shall I give you your shampoo?"