I didn't give you my consent | Station 19

19 - Phone calls

TW: Mentions/Discussion of Self-harming, Rape, Abuse...

This and next chapter are pretty Carina-heavy chapters. But that probably won't bother anyone 🫣

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When Carina came out of the shower and was finally able to get ready properly, she immediately felt much fresher. She was no longer so tired and felt a bit calmer again.

She put the rest of her things back in Maya's locker and headed towards the common room. Sitting down on the sofa, she leaned her head back and looked up at the ceiling:

"Diane, per favore, oggi hai tempo"
("Diane, please have time today")

Carina whispered to herself and breathed in and out a few times. She took her cell phone out of her pocket and saw that Maya had texted her about 10 minutes ago:

Maya: 'Don't be so hard on yourself, no one could have known, like you said. We'll talk to Mila later and be able to help her! Love you very much! <3

Carina grinned at her cell phone and felt a little better. Maya was right, no one could have known, not even Carina or Ben, who perhaps could have seen the signs better.

Carina wrote Maya a short message back:

Carina: 'Love you too and thanks for your message Bambina, you're right, I shouldn't be so hard on myself <3'

She closed the chat and went to her contact list to look for Diane. She had found her contact and leaned forward a little before calling and cleared her throat.

She pressed call and listened to the dial tone. Carina tapped her thigh with her fingers:

"Pick up, come on, please.... Diane please pick up..."

To her disappointment, however, the call went to voicemail. Carina slammed the cell phone on the sofa and got upset:

"Oh come on!"

Carina got up and paced back and forth in the room. She thought about whom of the therapists she could ask from the hospital, but didn't really know who would be the right person for Mila.

Suddenly Carina's cell phone rang on the sofa and Carina quickly sprinted over to it:

"DIANE! THANK GOD!"

She answered the call and was greeted by Diane, who seemed surprised by her call:

"Carina, unusual to get a call from you, is everything okay? I couldn't answer your call a few minutes ago, I was having a meeting."

Carina breathed a sigh of relief:

"Heyy Diane, thank you for calling me back, I'm fine. however, I have a concern for someone else at 19..."

"What's going on? Is something wrong with Maya?"

Diane sounded a little worried; Station 19 was close to her heart. Besides, she had chosen this job after her accident for a reason. Helping other firefighters and going through traumatic events together was even closer to her heart.

Carina replied to Diane and denied the understandable connection to Maya:

"Maya is fine, she's fine. It's about Mila Graham... sadly she's not fine at all..."

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"Ohhh... What happened? I haven't heard from her for a long time. I thought she was doing quite well"

Carina cleared her throat again, she felt bad for Mila:

"Well... Mila's been doing really well the last few weeks, she's made more and more connections with the others, celebrated her 21st birthday and was finally independent from her family... Everything was great until yesterday."