I didn't give you my consent | Station 19

17 - What is that?

TW: Self-harming mentions

Written from the perspective of an omniscient narrator:
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Carina and Vic sat down beside Mila for a few more minutes. She fell asleep almost immediately after lying down, the pill and the lack of sleep made it easy for her.

Vic spoke to Carina once she was sure that Mila was asleep:

"How long do you think the pill will last for?"

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"I gave her a slightly weaker dosage. I think in 3 to 4 hours, just before your shift ends, we can start trying to wake her up. With her lack of sleep, she'll get enough sleep tonight by the time we put her up with one of us."

Vic was very worried about Mila. She looked over at her, who was finally sleeping peacefully.
If she could have taken away the pain Mila was experiencing right now she would have taken it immediately:

"Has anyone contacted Diane yet? I think she should talk to her as soon as possible. I'm really worried and I'm truly heartbroken to see her like this."

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"I'll try to get her to talk to Diane tonight, or tomorrow at the very latest. If necessary, we should take her to Grey Sloan... I can at least find her a therapist there who can talk to her for now if necessary..."

Vic nodded, not quite sure how to ask Carina some of the questions that were on her mind:

"Carina... You think that Mila..."

Carina looked at Vic expectantly and worriedly and waited for her question, while Vic was afraid of getting an answer that would worry her even more.

"...do you think she could be a real danger to herself? I mean after what happened to her yesterday, along with her past and her attempt to hurt herself yesterday..."

Vic looked worriedly into Carina's eyes and knew that Carina knew what she was referring to:

"do you think she might have been thinking of suicide as well after what happened to her before with her family and yesterday?"

They both swallowed deeply, but Carina knew that it was difficult to really find out what was going on inside Mila:

"I'd really want to say I don't believe it, but I actually can't. Mila has always tried to suppress and cover up her feelings and thoughts. We have to keep a close eye on her over the next few days. Watch her and listen to her, give her the support she needs and, above all, let her process everything in a safe way."

Vic nodded to Carina with a worried expression and got a heartfelt worried smile back.

They just sat there for a few more minutes. They couldn't just leave Mila alone yet. The pill made sure that she wouldn't get up on her own before 1 p.m., but they still wanted to keep an eye on her for at least a little while longer.

Meanwhile, Maya was already carrying the cardigan and sweatpants out of the bedroom. The idea was to shake them out a bit on the balcony before washing them to remove the biggest glass pieces.

It was now 8:15, so only three quarters of an hour to go before the line up. Enough time to do the washing and freshen up oneself, Maya thought, and headed towards the kitchen.

In the kitchen, Maya saw that Ben and Andy had already finished cleaning up the glass and breakfast. Both of them were now talking while leaning against the counters.

Andy and Ben noticed Maya standing in the hallway with the laundry and Ben asked worriedly about Mila:

"How is she, is she finally asleep?"