The throne's keeper.

Chapter 30 - Cheat.

Sanele.

I feel a slight stur before she stops and she stares around with just her eyes before her eyes finally find mine and she looks away again.

I gently caress her back as I keep my eyes on her and I feel her sigh as she pulls herself closer to my body again.

"How long have you been awake ?"

"I didn't sleep..."

"And Anele, how is she ?"

"She's still asleep."
I tell her and she reaches for my arm and she looks at the bruising from last night quietly for what feels like forever before she starts to gently caress it with her thumb

"I am sorry."

"It's okay... it won't happen again."

"I don't want to hurt you again Sanele."

"Hey its okay, it won't happen again... it was a mistake and you were angry and I can barely even feel it so you have nothing to apologize for ."

She sighs before she gets up from the bed and she lays against the head board and she brushes the lower half of her face while I also get up and I sit closely next to her and she stares up at me with gorgeous eyes and everything even in their beautiful sleepy state.

I hold her hand and I give a little rub and she lays her head on my shoulder and I place a kiss above her head.

"Did you really mean what you said to me last night ?"

"I wouldn't repeat something I don't mean over and over again."

"I just find it so hard you know... I feel like everybody around me just tolerates me or feels sorry for me. I've always been alone Sanele, nobody ever shows up for me except for myself, nobody ever chooses me."

"Hey don't say that about yourself."

"But it's the truth..."

"It's a lie because I am here now and I love you, not because I feel sorry for you, but because I fell inlove with you... craziness and everything."
She starts to laugh and i Iaugh together with her at the last part before both our laughs all die down.

"And I love you too."
She says and kiss her forehead this time and she gives me a small smile and she stares at me for a long while before she stares down at our hands and she carasses mine with her thumb.

"I need to tell you something... "
She says as she gets up from the head board and she looks at me now with our hands still locked together.

She holds back her tears for a long time until they start to trickle down her cheek.

"It's okay..."
I stride my finger past her cheek to wipe her tear as more tears run down both her cheeks now.

"I've never told anybody this before..."

"I can tell..."
Her eyes soften as soon as I say this and she nods her head again before wiping another one of her tears and she goes back to holding our hands together.

I won't stop her from telling me because she needs this although I can feel myself struggling as well just watching her right now.

"Eleven years ago I met a guy... he was nice and gentle with me and he always looked after me... I didn't have that many friends in high school and the ones I had all had their own friends so I was alone most of the time when I wasn't with them... the situation at home was really bad... my parents where in a really bad place in their marriage and things began to fall apart at home... he was a few grades ahead of me and he was older and he lived close to my house with his grandmother so we knew each other... we'd share lunches together him and I, travel back home together,  spend time after school together too and he'd make me forget about everything that happened back home.
At some point we started spending even more time together, it went from just afternoons to late nights... and we would talk for hours we would have fun together, lots and lots of fun... and we weren't inlove, we just enjoyed being with each other and we understandood each other but he understood me more... "