To His Future Lover ✔ (Haciendero #5)

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Kabanata 13

Surprise

Warning: R-18. Read at your own risk, or better skip.

Maybe, I was a people pleaser or maybe not.

Mas bagay yatang misery enjoyer.

It was a mistake suggesting that to Julius just because I couldn't sort my feelings at that moment, but instead of breaking up with him, I went to meet his barkada. Ika nga, nasa huli ang pagsisisi.

Kung nasa unahan iyon, baka hindi ko na ginawa.

Tumungo kami sa isang billiard hall kasama ang mga kaibigan niya. His friends were cool, they were very welcoming to me. Mas lalo tuloy akong na-guilty na parang ginawa kong panakip butas ang kaibigan nila.

I used him to analyze my feelings for someone.

Hindi naman kasi dapat nagkakagusto sa kaibigan... ang hirap pigilan. There was no switch off button.

Muli kong binasa ang huling mensaheng galing kay Chance. Pagkatapos ng engagement dinner ni Mama, hindi na siya nagpakita sa aking muli.

From: Makoy <3

Hi, Crim. I saw you two in the garden. I guess, he's your boyfriend now. I'll be honoring our promise to each other to have boundary so I wouldn't be causing trouble in your relationship. Let's catch up from time to time. Best wishes!

Mas lalo akong nakaramdam ng lungkot... na deserve ko naman.

"Wanna try?" Julius smiled at me.

"Paano ba?" Itinago ko ang phone ko sa dala kong bag.

I inquired to seem interested with billiards.

Hindi lang naman larong billiard ang nasa p'wedeng gawin sa lugar. Mayroon ding arcades, darts at iba't iba pang games. Pinokus ko naman ang sarili sa harapan.

I kept trying. But I couldn't even get it.

Lumalabas yata sa tainga ko ang lahat ng instructions na narinig ko mula kay Julius. Ang ending, palaging iyong cue ball lang dinadali ko. At least, we had a laugh about it.

I preferred him as a tropa. Hindi ko talaga maramdaman ang kilig at sparks sa kanya.

He was just there the moment I wanted to remove the jealousy I was feeling.

"Uy, baka bored na si Crimson dito. Maybe we should go to another place. Okay ka pa ba, Crimson?" tanong ni Mateo, isa sa mga kaibigan ni Julius.

He looked familiar to me.

Siya pala iyong kasama nito minsan sa bar na pinuntahan namin. Hindi pa kami gaanong close noon ni Julius. Well... I don't even know how to describe our relationship now.

"No, I'm not bored. Hindi lang talaga ako makasali dahil hindi ako marunong. I'll just watch you guys." I just smiled.

Lumapit si Julius sa tayo ko. "Do you want something to eat? I'll get you something."

"I'm fin---"

"Pare, ako rin, sabay mo na. Thanks."

Tumango naman si Julius at lumakad patungo sa food court section. Hindi naman bawal kumain sa loob pero sariling ligpit sa kalat. I think the establishment could ban those who don't follow rules.

"Crimson..." Mateo called my attention. "I hope you don't mind mind me saying this, but please, don't break his heart. He's really a nice dude."

Napalunok naman ako.