I was sitting on the living room window with a smoke and a book, while the blasting scorch of a sun , slowly rose up the sky.
A calm and early morning was rather unknown timing for me , but here i stood.
The book Cadavier gave me was strange. More of a personal diary than a book really in the way it was written.
A man who doesn't mention his name anywhere , providing detailed descriptions of creatures and places he saw. Hard to read the more you progress through the pages. His writing growing patchy and inconsistent. Like a man descending into madness , writing passages in hope of finding his way back.
The stories inside however were captivating in a horrific kind of way. Not all of them , but most .
Like the story which portrays Death as a god. Forever bound to roam the earth and take lives away , until he finds the one that refuses to die ... only to switch places with him , so that death may continue. A trade of a curse ending in one simple thing - death for death.
Non of what i read so far , both for creatures and places helped me in any way, but i kept on reading. Cadavier has never given me anything, without it having a point. He always helped , even in vague twisted ways , he helped and i trusted him.
Wizarding world changed non while I was gone . I suppose two weeks are nothing, in comparison to the endless flow of time, but still i expected something to have changed , as i did.
Inhaling the smoke i stared outside the window . Nothing particular roaming my mind , until the aparition wards started humming and familiar figure appeared in the distance.
Of all the things i could feel , it was joy that spread through me . It wasn't an emotion i would normally associate with myself. It felt like forever ago he left me here. I focused on the wards and lowered the barrier unwilling to run towards him, but wanting to.
It wasn't long till the front door opened and his footsteps echoed in the hallway.
- You are angry. Matheo said as walking in . I took his appearance with a deep breath. Unruly messy curls covering those molten fire eyes. He wore casual coat with , a green scarf and loose pants . His beautiful face looking at me with concern.
I didn't reply , as my heart started pounding in my ears, with each step he took. Desire rushed through me like fire , burning away through my restraint and i inhaled a sharp drag , before putting my smoke off in the ashtray.
I approached him slowly, purposely playing into his concern , until i stopped right in front of him. He didn't move a muscle, his eyes studying my face.
- I missed you. I whispered out and let my hand touch his face near the scar, craving the warmth only he provided.
- You missed me? He questioned his voice faltering and his eyes softened. It was such a strange thing to see.
- Mhmmm. I hummed and watched him take a deep breath.
- Every bloody day , since i left you here. He whispered out looking into my eyes , our lips one breath away.
Before i can rationalise i kissed him , my hands pulling his face closer to mine . There was no hesitation in him this time , as his hands coiled around me in a tight grip. His kiss was soft , his hands roaming all over my body . It caused goosebumps over my skin , before i was suddenly in the air with my thighs around his waist. He kept kissing me , as he walked into the hallway.
I did us both a favour and apparated us to my bedroom. The sudden change made him drop my lips to look around, his eyebrows scrunching .
- Not what you expected? I whispered and bit his neck playfully . His grip tightened around my thighs.
- On the contrary it's exactly what i expected. . Matheo said with a laugh and tugged my lower lip between his teeth.
He dropped down to the bed so suddenly and my my hands clutched above his neck , continuing that kiss of fire. While my mind muddled with lust, my hands tracing patterns on his back. I felt trapped underneath him , but in a good way. The groan he released in my ear, made smirk and i twisted my legs around his waist, pulling him closer to me.
He radiated heat that i craved to touch , so i reached out to his shirt and started unbuttoning impatiently. I wanted to touch his skin, run my nails down his naked back and watch him loose control, but my hands were stopped in place, his eyes changing to fear, as he looked at me.
- Don't. He mumbled and pushed my hands away , before silencing my protests with a kiss , his tongue stealing whatever words of protest i had. His hands reached out up my body slowly taking my shirt off. The cold air hit my breasts , making more goosebumps rise up my body.
- You are so unrealistically beautiful . He almost whispered and began kissing down my neck and to my chest.
His touch was fire and i would gladly burn in it , without a second of a thought. A moan I couldn't stop left me , when he bit the side of my neck and i felt him smile on my skin.
Patience left me too and my hands untied the belt around his waist ,before throwing it to the floor.
Bending my knee to the side i quickly pushed my waist up and turned us around , before he has a chance to protest.
His eyes were full of amusement , as he stared at me from bellow , his fingertips running up and down my naked back. The feeling of it... I wouldn't sell for the world.
I reached and grabbed his pulsing length , before pushing his pants down. His eyes fluttered closed , a deep breath leaving him and i lowered my lips slowly kissing down his stomach, while my nails ran down his clothed chest. Why he wanted to keep the shirt on was beyond me , but I didn't want to push.
So i took his dick out and ran my hands down the length enjoying the way his body shook , before taking it in my mouth.
I would have sold my heart if i had it , for the sounds that began leaving him , as I moved my lips up and down his length, keeping the slow tempo. I'd liked to imagine it's my revenge , as i turned my eyes up to look at him, his pupils blown wide open and staring back at me with so much adoration and desire. His hands twisted in my hair pulling it slightly, before he trusted harder reaching my throat and making me gag. I welcomed it , when he did it again and again, lost in his own pleasure . Saliva began dripping on the sides of my mouth from the sheer strength it took me , to take him all in.
- Bloody fucking hell , you absolute slut. Come here. He bit out and tried to pull me up , but i resisted ignoring the pain in my scalp and dug my nails on the sides of his thighs. I looked up to his furious eyes and smirked at his pleasured expression.
- No. i whispered and kept my eyes on his, putting my tongue out In demonstration and licked his throbbing length , all the way down to his balls and back. His eyes closed his head falling back into the pillows , a deep groan leaving him and his body eased bellow me. So i kept going , listening to every breath he took, every moan , until they started turning ragged , his hands pulling on my hair harder than before.
- Carnagee ... He chanted my name as a warning and i pushed deeper , cutting my own breath out for a moment. He was close i knew it the moment his body started shaking .
- Fuckkkkkkkkkk. He yelled and grabbed the back of my head pushing deeper and faster . Gurgled wet sounds is all that left me , as he got lost within that desire , i wished to give him.
Warm liquid sprayed in my mouth, leaking down my throat and i pulled away to take a breath , as his yell echoed all around me . It was a mere second that i had the high ground, basking in my achievements, before his hand was wrapped under my jaw and Matheo raised himself up to me , eyes like blazing fire.
- Go on swallow slut , all of it. He bit out the degrading words ,that instead of offending me , just stroked the fire building inside . This was no place for shame and be damned , if i felt it. So i did , i also put my tongue out as a mockery to him . Bite me.
- Ohh feeling rebellious are now are you? I will fix that. Matheo purred and the way he smiled at me , made me want to take that last one back .
He released my neck pushing my whole body down,before grabbing my thighs and pulling me towards him.
My pants and panties were disregarded to the side , faster than i can process and he nestled himself between my legs. A moan escaped me as soon as i felt his tip press into my entrance. Clearly orgasms do nothing to sway the man , but damn was I grateful for that fact , because i needed him more.
- You wet from sucking my cock slut. That's good. He simply said with a smirk , before he thrusted into me fully .
A mix of moan and yell left me , my back arching , pain and pleasure hitting me at the same time. I reached out , wanting to drag him close to me, steal a kiss ,while my body adjusted to his size, but he pushed me away with a vicious smirk on his face , before he started moving in an out of me this time gently.. slowly. Each friction playing with the fire building inside my core. And yet my body tensed , because I remembered the last time i was with him. The violence of his desire , the push to extremes , there was nothing soft or gentle about it and my body wasn't as easily fooled, as my mind was. It knew.
He placed his hands on my , squeezing and toying around , while keeping the same slow rhythm , that was putting me on edge with every thrust. Like anticipation building , one wave of pleasure at a time.
I lost his eyes , when mine closed , another wave of pleasure washing over me, I couldn't take this no more.
- Matheooo . I whispered out and pushed myself harder into him. I wanted more.
- Yes my beautiful slut. He mumbled back and i opened my eyes to look at him.
Not beautiful... godly ... the beauty of this man. His eyes now dark, almost black . His face stuck in a display of fake innocence , as he pushed into me harder.
- Stop holding back. I bit out in anger and tried to yank his hands of my thighs. It didn't work . He just laughed at me , before lowering himself closer to my lips, but keeping his tight hold. My hands snapped out immediately and i ran them down his muscled back. I wished i could tear theough his shirt... So close...
- I am not , nor will i ever with you . I am simply stretching you out , my broken thing. He whispered and ghosted over my lips. Realisation of his words hit ,after he rammed into me fully , his tip hitting my walls. This time i yelled and did not held back , as the pain undid the fire i never knew build in my core. The orgasm burned through me like inferno , lighting up everything in his way and my eyes rolled to the back of my head. I wasn't prepared for the pleasure that ran rampant, forgetting all about the man above me. Anything really. Nothing else mattered but this high.
- Uff strong innit? You are going to have to ride it out i'm afraid , i can allow you no rest. His voice said piercing through my haze and i felt his fingers caressing my neck, before they twisted around my throat .
The sudden change made my eyes snap open to find the familiar burning gaze.
- Wait. I whispered out too late ,as he rammed into me again and picked up the pace fast. The pleasure already running through me intensified ten fold , as his grip around my throat tightened cutting off my air.
I couldn't move and I couldn't breathe , neither did i wanted to in this moment. All i could focus on was his face, that looked down at me in feral delight. That beautiful face..., stuck somewhere between desire and damnation . For me or him i wondered.
He kept the merciless tempo allowing my a breath here and there and enjoying my reactions , when he took it away again. I was so down in the pleasure loop i didn't care what he did , my body just followed. It was ecstatic losing control in such way , freeing..and yet with all this control in his hands, i knew he wouldn't actually hurt me. I could see it in the way his eyes carefully scanned my reactions , for anything a miss. The way his left hand pressed on my stomach gently, contrasting to his thrusts inside.
- Matheo i am gonna cum. I managed to get out , my voice now hoarse .
- What's the magic word ? He questioned and and his finger smudged over my lips.
- Pleaseee. I mumbled and out pulled him closer to me , biting his lower lip. He smiled into it , before he caught my lips . This kiss was different, violent in the way passion is , but needy at the same time, like fire needs air to survive. It messed with my head , making me push for more. If i could never stop kissing the man , i would be content . That was my last thought before my core tightened again , my very skin tingling , as that fire set loose, burning whatever i had in its way.
Matheo bit down on my lip hard breaking it , as he pushed into me . The sound that left him was feral and his eyes locked with mine, his whole body shaking . I couldn't move or think , when he pressed his forehead down to mine , a huge smile stretching on his lips. A smile I didn't have to mimic , because bliss washed over me .
- Fuck..me. I mumbled out and he laughed , the sound reverberating in his chest.
- I can go again. He threatened smiling and I didn't knew if he was joking or not , with that dark gleam over his eyes.
His throbbing length was still pulsing in me , as if to be my reminder.
No I couldn't take no more , at least i can admit that to myself.
- Oh now you are silent. If i only knew that earlier . He murmured with amusement and started placing kisses all over my face. It was such a sudden change it confused me , but i liked it... i liked the affection. He pulled out of me , before slacking his body on top of mine and resting his head on my chest in silent demand. It made me snort a laugh. The giant of a man in my hands , liked to have his hair played with. So i did . Running my fingers through those messy curls and enjoying the softness of them.
The sun shined outside , but the dragon glass blocked it , making it barely a shadow. We were siting in the dark , in silence and it was peaceful. I looked down to find him hugging my waist, one hand placed on my stomach. I found a rather endearing. The shirt still covered his back ,now all wrinkled and up his waist.
- You have scars , you do not wish me to see. I mumbled out and ran my hand down his spine , through the material. He tensed on top of me immediately.
- I don't. It's nothing . He defended immediately making me look down to his face.
- Scars are not nothing. They are flesh memory for the things you survived. A constant reminder you can see. What i was trying to say is ... You don't need to tell me , but i wouldn't judge , even if you did.
He moved his head up slightly , those dark brown eyes staring at me in a way I couldn't read.
- Never heard someone call them that before. Flesh memory. Has a ring to it , aside from the fact it's true. He spoke and layed back down , tracing patterns on my left thigh. It was a soothing feeling and i allowed my body to relax.
- What's this one from ? He suddenly asked and i looked down to my leg , where he was pointing. A large meddled slash stood just above my knee.
A laugh bubled out of me , as memories swiped in.
- When i was in camp we had this celebration twice a year . A bonfire , as big as the mountains surrounding us.
Before that however we had the most grilling... exercises. I explained as various field missions swam through my head.
- Let me guess your princess like ass, failed somehow and managed to land in the worst of situations after and ended up getting this. Matheo said with a laugh i joined . He wasn't far off.
I won that field mission fair and square , but got into a fight with the other team captain later , which i also won . What I didn't win , is the order from command , to run around the camp as a punishment for beating his dumb ass , while absolutely blasted drunk. Not my finest moment.
- First of all My princess like ass , never fails . I excel in everything i do.
I did however , fail profoundly in keeping my anger in check. At the time i was incapable of walking away from a fight.
So i was .. well given detention after set fight ocured. Had to run laps all around camp, which i could , but not as blasted drunk as i was that night. Long story short i woke up in the woods the next day , face in the mud and with this scar. My best guess is i tripped on something and fell , probably decided i will just take a nap .
- Are you bloody serious? He asked his eyebrows shooting to his forehead.
- Mhmm like the dead. I replied and gave him a deadpan look that sent him into a spiral of laughter.
I liked his laugh . And i also told the truth, sort of. Closer to anything i've ever shared and would have to do for now. Maybe one day it would be different.
- You are wearing my gift. He mumbled out and touched my hand, where the bracelet resided.
- It's beautiful that melody.. i . Thank you. I spoke and he raised himself up from me , before extending his hand up and turning it around. The stone appeared between his fingers , the flame burning brightly inside.
- I should be the one thanking you, although some would argue against gifting me fire. He said smirking and i could have sworn actual fire glowed in his eyes for a moment.
- Sounds like a boring bunch those. Ignore them. I replied dramatically swinging my wrist like a queen.
- Aye . Off with their heads . That's an order! Matheo chimed in in the same dramatic manner and swinged his finger around with authority... I laughed imagining him in a red velvet robes ,swishing behind him and a pompous crown.
He reached for his pants on the ground , taking out his wand before looking at me.
- So i uh. About that. Do you mind if i just? Do you want me too? He fumbled over words confusing me and , until he pointed to my stomach. Oh he was embarrassed.
- I am on herbs , but i'd appreciate it if you did , just in case. I answered and watched him swirl the wand around
Muttering something. White light appeared suddenly before disappearing again. It felt like air passing through my stomach for a moment , but it wasn't unpleasant. It makes sense why I didn't felt it with Tom.
- So why did you come here pretty man? I asked and stood up from the bed , putting the robe back on me. He frowned immediately and reached for his watch , a series of colourful curses leaving his mouth.
- Well i was suppose to invite you to the New Years eve party , on behalf of both me and Tom. Given that's in 5 hours i'd say you should start getting ready. He blurred out way to quickly and stood up.
- On behalf of both of you how? I questioned and he turned back grining at me.
- Like that . You will go with both of us or not at all. Not my words .
I would have stoled you in an instant before the party , but Tom seems to have other plans. Matheo said making me frown.
- What plans?
- Some information he wants to share on the tournament. He told me everything. I know about your map and your ideas. I know about the meeting with the ministry . I am hoping all of us together would be able to figure it out , cause we running out of bloody time. He said and his voice turned serious , his expression changing.
He told him?
- And where were you? You disappeared. I questioned and saw him immediately look away .
- Albania doing some favours for my family , it wasn't exactly my choice leaving. He defended and i watched his body language . I couldn't tell if he is lying or not. Half of it was a lie maybe , but which half? He was better in improvised lying than Tom.
Part of me got angry instantly, but it died out quickly , knowing I was lying to him too. Both of them.
- Okay. I replied and turned to the bathroom.
- That's it?Okay? No questions? No dramatic protests? He questioned with a suspicious tone.
- I do have one question. What's your stake of all this? Tom already told me his , but you never did. So what is that that you want Matheo Riddle? I questioned and turned around to look at him. He was staring right back at me his face blank , no sign of the gentleness to his pretty features.
- I just want to see the world burn. He replied with a passive voice, void of all emotion. A voice i heard from him once before.
- Well aren't we a triple? I whispered out , as i compared our desires and realised non of us three is good. But then again what was good? Comfort food for the weak.
He seemed confused for a moment , before he took slow steps towards me.
- What about you ? What do you want ? He asked me with hopeful eyes , that i found i didn't wish to lie to. One step at a time, i could do this.
- I want to make monsters fear. I answered honestly and watched his reactions closely. He furrowed his eyebrows , his head tilting , like he was trying to understand my words . But they were not twisted or hiding secret meanings this time. Just the truth.
- Hard ask you have made for yourself , you will have to be a monster too first. Matheo mused and his hand sneaked around my waist. He looked down at me with so much adoration , it almost made me feel guilty. Almost.
- Maybe i already am. I replied and looked into his eyes. I wanted him to see i meant it, even if i couldn't exactly tell him the truth.
- You are not a monster Carnage. He said and smiled at me , before placing his temple to mine. I noticed it has become a thing of his. A display of affection born out of gentleness, that no doubt was hard for him to express.
Now that made truly guilty.
- You don't know me well lover, i belong in hell . I whispered out and pulled away from him. I couldn't stand to look at those truthful eyes , knowing i am the liar in this narrative.
