A Forbidden Love

Chapter 9

Hinatas POV
I awoke in the morning at sunrise when the beams of light came through my open window and were shining down on my face and I sighed in content and bliss at the feeling of warmth shining down upon my face. It felt so wonderful. But what didn't feel so wonderful was how stiff I was. I sat up slowly stretching once I was sitting up fully. It felt good to get the kinks of stiffness out from my limbs. I blinked a couple times to get the sleepiness out of my eyes and looked over at Goyo. Even when he sleeps he looks so peaceful. I hate that he's in so much pain though. And also because of me.. It brings so much guilt upon me It crushes me and I can't believe he would go through something like that.. Because of me. I couldn't even look at him without hanging my head in shame and guilt that threatens to bury me nine feet deep in the ground. I grabbed some jeans and a white blouse and my undergarments and went into my bathroom. I stripped off all my clothes and got in the shower. It felt good to have the water running against me. Relaxing my stiff body. I quickly bathed and got out. I had too much that needed to be done today. Once I was dressed I went over to my sink and washed my face, brushed my teeth, put on some perfume, and brushed my hair. Once my hair was brushed I let it fall down in its natural waved and put on a black headband. I applied some make up real quick and put on some lipgloss as well. I walked out of my bathroom barefoot and tears immediately came to my eyes when I say Goyo finally awake. I ran to him and was afraid to even hug him and wrap my arms around him the way I wanted to. I fell to my knees at his side and he flashed a weak smile at me. It made my heart hurt. He was obviously trying to hide how much pain he was in. He always has to be mr tough guy. I suppressed a sigh as I ran my hand through his hair and gently stroked his cheek. I set my hands back in my lap and stayed as still as a statue when he held out a shaky arm and brushed his hand against my cheek. I closed my eyes and leaned into his touch it felt good... Comforting.. "Hinata... You're so beautiful..." I smiled weakly at him and said, "thank you.." He smiled a pain filled smile and it nearly broke my heart. He dropped his hand to his side and let it hang loosely off the futon. I took his hand in mine hesitantly and he smiled. I went through everything I was gAnna say in the next few minutes before I was to ask him. I had to do it carefully though. I don't want to upset him. I have already caused him enough pain. I took a deep breath and said,"Goyo how did you get those marks on your back?? Why are they there?! Who did them to you!?! Tell me please!!?!" So much for carefully asking.. It just all came out in a rush.. I have to know.

Goyos POV

I laid there on the futon frozen after what she had just said. I wasn't sure how to react to that exactly. I mean I knew all the answers but how was she going to take them. I can't hurt her... Maybe I could sugar coat it... I remembered the note in my shirt pocket from the emperor and didn't think to look at it while she was in the bathroom. Curses began ringing through my mind as she said something else. "Goyo! Answer me!!" I looked at her and saw hurt and anger plastered all over her face. Tears had welled up in her eyes. They were threatening to spill over. "Hinata... I-" I started but she interrupted me and said,"answer me!!" I nodded and swallowed,"hinata... I.. I was whipped... As you can probably tell...-" I paused and she let out an irritated huff and said,"tell me who did them to you Goyo... Tell me now!!" I shook my head sadly cause if she were to know the truth behind these marks on my back.... It would destroy her relationship with her father... She would hate him.. I can't bear to see her have to carry the weight of a broken relationship with her father.. And then her father would more than likely punish me.. A lot more than last time... It would be no day in heaven... My thoughts were disrupted whenever I heard her snap. "Fine! Don't tell me... Don't let me in on what the hell happened to you... Just be that way Goyo.. You obviously don't need your best friend here with you.. So I'll send jasmine in to take care of you and watch your ass all day until I get back... Maybe then you'll have some answers for me.. Maybe we can do a trade you give me answers and maybe I'll give you some too.. Cause you sure as hell won't let me in.. So I'll just leave.."
She grabbed her phone off her nightstand and was walking towards her door. "Hinata... Wait.. Please.." I pleaded. She stopped with her hand on the handle and her back remained to me. "Are you gAnna give me answers??"
"Hinata... Please wait.. I can't... You wouldn't understand-" I pleaded with her. But she wouldn't listen. In an instant she turned towards me tears pouring down her cheeks her eyes were bright red from the crying. I felt horrible those tears were because of me. "You can't tell me?! What the hell goy0?! I'm your best friend! I wouldn't understand?! What would I not understand!! I can't understand anything when you won't tell me jack!" I reached out to her and pleaded again.."please don't go! Please..."
"I'm staying if you will tell me... But if you don't I'm leaving Goyo.." I pleaded with my eyes to her but said nothing.. I can't tell her... the truth would destroy her. Tears poured down her cheeks and she turned and wrenched open the door and slammed it shut without a word. I'm screwed. If her father sees her like this.. It's gAnna be another day in hell raining down on me. I banged my head against the surprisingly soft futon and screamed into the mattress. Letting out all the pain and anger I have been feeling lately. Life can be so unfair sometimes.

Hinatas POV

Tears were streaming down my cheeks and my vision was blurry. I continued running until I got to the castle stables. I ran to kirodayu and got on him and gave him a kick and got him running. I needed to get out of here. Away from all of this! The whole ride into town I was crying and felt like crap. This was my fault. Goyo being punished. He looked like he was in so much pain. Because of me.. Once we came upon our destination I tied kirodayu to a nearby tree and began walking. Not stopping until I reached the front door. I knocked waiting for the door to open. I needed my anchor. My feeling of comfort back. I needed my calm. I needed him.