was it worth the fame- pedri gonzalez

treinta y seis

There's a knock on the door, "it's open!" I shout at whoever is there. I instantly regret it when Nova walks in.

"fuck," I mutter under my breathe.

"Tabi I thought you had work," she looks at me surprised. This can go two ways either I lie or I tell the truth and argue with her.

I choose the first option, "haha, umm, yeah the buyer was busy, so he cancelled and we set up for a new day."

"and I thought you had a date," she points at Adella and Gavi who are hugging really cutely.

"yeah but Pedri wanted to hang out so we decided to and then obviously Tabi couldn't work so," Adella explains using my lie.

"you could've told me you were going on a double date, I would've brought a friend." She has no friends apart from 'us' so I'm not sure who she would've planned to bring but okay.

Pedri shakes his head, "this isn't supposed to be a double date, Joao is here." I feel bad we always forget or act like he's not here.

"oh so you just forgot to invite me, well it's okay I'm here now what are we doing?" She's so clueless sometimes. We make it so obvious that we don't like her.

I sigh, "no Nova you aren't getting the hint."

"what do you mean?" She looks at me confused.

"we didn't forget to invite you," I start to explain.

"we chose not to hang out with you," Pedri tells her.

"what? Why would you do that?" I didn't wanna have to do this but I don't know what else to do and I promised Pedri I would.

"I don't like you anymore Nova, none of us do." It's done I just hope she gets the hint after this and leaves us alone.

"what? Is this true guys?" No one speaks and the room is silent.

"you've changed and I don't know why but Pedri's noticed it and Adella doesn't like you, neither does Pablo or Joao," I carry on talking breaking the silent. I would've done it in a nicer way butt there is no nice way to drop people you don't like.

"what the hell Tabi we've been best friends for so long how can you say this?" She raises her voice at me. She's good at not letting her anger out but I can tell how upset she is.

"you're annoying and your mean to people for no reason and you're an attention seeker and selfish and I would like it if you stopped hanging out with us," I tell her feeling more bad and bad by the second but it has to be done.

"fine I'll go back to Tenerife." She turns her back on us.

"Nova don't take it personally, we don't wanna hurt your feeling I still care about you." I hate this, I don't like disappointing people yet alone making them upset. 

"no you don't Tabi, none of you do. I can't believe these 20 years of my life have been a lie. I hate you, I hate all of you!" She storms out.

"I'm a bad person aren't I?" There's no way I actually did that.

"of course not princessa." Pedri tries telling me. I run upstairs and cry. I don't regret what I did but I still feel like shit I would never do that to a person, so I don't know why I did that to my best friend.

Pedri walks in and sits next to me on the floor, "princessa."

"I can't believe I did that she was my best friend and I completely ruined everything. I'm such a bad person I shouldn't have done that, she hates me now." I cry into my hands.

"Tabi, listen to me. You've been friends for so long, so if you cut her off then there must have been a good reason. I trust it wasn't an impulsive decision it must have been the right choice. Yeah she probably hates you and it will take you a while to get over it but when you do you'll feel good about yourself because you have to drop toxic people and it was clear how toxic she was." He hugs me and we stay in this position for a while.

"thank you," I needed to hear those words but it doesn't make me feel the best.

"no need to thank me, you were so brave you know that," he gives me a small smile.

"mhm I guess," I shrug my shoulders and avoid eye contact.

"not many people could do what you just did, so yeah it doesn't feel good but I'm proud of you," he reassures me.

"thank you," I tell him.

"are you okay now?" He asks me.

"I will be, are you gonna break up with me?" I ask the dreaded question, scared of his response. I can only pray he says no.

"what? No never, why would I do that?" He asks confused. I'm just grateful that he's not being weird because of that.

I sigh shaking my head, "don't worry let's go down."

"okay."

We get up and he kisses me. If Pedri really cared he would want to know why i felt like that so im right he doesn't like me. Atleast when he breaks up with me i'll expect it this time. 

"it will be okay," I nod my head.

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