Married To A Monster (Completed)

C'34

Chapter 34

“Y-You're unbelievable” tanging nasambit ko sa kabila ng mga narinig ko mula sakanya. He plastered a demonic smirk and didn't mind what I've just said.

Nag-iwas ako ng tingin habang patuloy parin sa pag-agos ang mga luha ko. Napalunok ako dahil parang may nakabara sa lalamunan ko, I felt a strange pang in my chest and this feeling is very familiar.

And I know I'm hurting right now.

Pinunasan ko ang mga luha ko at buong tapang na sinalubong ang malamig niyang mga mata.

“I love you” sambit ko sa kabila ng sakit na nararamdaman ko, nakita ko naman na bahagya siyang natigilan at may kakaibang emosyon na dumaan sakanyang mga mata pero saglit ring nawala at naging malamig ulit ito.

I avoided his cold gaze for a second at agad ko rin itong binalik “Mahal na mahal kita, Stefano. I'm willing to accept who you are, what you are and everything about you at ganun kita kamahal. Yung pagmamahal na matagal ko ng gustong maranasan at maramdaman, i-ikaw, tanging ikaw lang yung nagparamdam s-saakin” I stopped and because of the pain I'm feeling right now, it's hard to say the words I want to say and the feelings I want to let out.

Huminga ako ng malalim at ramdam ko ang panginginig ng katawan ko, but I managed to calm myself because I don't want to look weak infront of him even though he's already my weakness, hinang-hina ako pagdating sakanya.

“Hindi ako naniniwala sa pagmamahal mula pagkabata ko, hindi na ako naniniwala sa mga ganyan dahil alam kong sa huli puro pasakit lang ang dala nito pero noong nakilala kita kinalimutan ko lahat, lahat ng mga paniniwala ko tungkol sa pagmamahal dahil ikaw lang, ikaw lang ang tanging nakapagparamdam sa akin ng pagmamahal na minsan hindi ko pinaniwalaan. You're my first in everything. I loved you with all my heart, with all of me...s-so how can you still doubt my love for you, huh Stefano? I took all the risk, even though there's a possibility that you'll gonna hurt me and yet we came to this part, you fucking hurting me right now but I'm still here standing infront of you saying how much I love you, that I can still accept who you are and what you are kase ganun kita kamahal and yet you're still doubting me? You're accusing me that I'm after your money?” sumbat ko na puno ng hinanakit habang walang tigil sa pag-agos ang mga luha ko.

He remained silent for a while. His eyes are still cold as ice. He's just looking at me like he's pitying me. There's no emotion in his eyes after all. All I can see is sympathy.

Naaawa siya sa akin, that's it.

Hindi ko kailangan ng awa niya, kailan ko yung pagmamahal na pinaramdam niya sa akin pero paano ko ba yun makikita eh puno yun ng kapekehan at pagpapanggap.

Saglit siyang nag-iwas ng tingin, I saw how he tighten his grip to the gun he's holding at, I saw how his jaw clenched. He looked at me once again.

“You're just confused” he stated coldly and unbothered “It's not love because that love doesn't even exist. You're just confused or infatuated, but I'm telling you right now” malamig paring sambit niya at dahan-dahang lumapit sa akin, but I didn't dare to step back because I still want to feel his presence closer “Forget me, and what you really feel towards me because I'm a bad person and I'll bring no good to you” he added.

Napapikit naman ako at pikit dinadamdam ang presensya niya. Somehow it made me calm “I love you. Mahal kita, at hindi yun mababago kahit anong sabihin at gawin mo hindi yun mababago–” napatigil ako at napamulat ng bigla niyang itinutok sa noo ko ang hawak niyang baril. The cold metal from his gun sent shiver down to my spine.

“Stop saying those fucking disgusting words!” he shouted angrily. I flinched and restrain myself from crying.

Instead of feeling scared, I plastered a sweet smile to show how much I'm serious about it, how much I'm serious about him and how much I love him, all of him.