"Max!" They say excited as he joins the interview, part of me wants to just vanish from the face of the earth. At least he's all cleaned up now.
"Hello" he says and gives me a faint smile which I return
"We just asked Dylan some questions about the FIA party and befriending you among other drivers. Was that just the energy that matched or were there other reasons" they ask him and im praying to god he thinks before he speaks
"No, we just talked at the party and we obviously knew his song and we got to know each-other thats all" he tells the reporter
"Will you two show up at each others upcoming events? Since you both speak dutch and seem to match each other's energy"
"Match?... nooo. We're totally different" I quickly say
Nice wat to play it cool Dylan... you're fucking stupid. The rain starts to increase
"Yeah, he's a really bad texter for example. He wont reply for days sometimes" Max says in a critical way
"Well thats all from us, we will pack up before it starts to pour down" the reporter says and I hand them my microphone back
"What was that?" I ask Max annoyed
"What do you mean what was that? It was the truth, you've been ignoring me for days and clearly you aren't drowning in work" he throws my way
"I told you I needed some time, what is so hard about that that you don't understand?"
"Because you are ignoring whatever it is we have" he attacks me
"No no, you can't be mad at me for not wanting to hide another relationship because you prioritise your career over love"
"See you even said it 'love', why is it so hard for you to understand that life isn't some fairy tale" Max says and gets louder, the rain starts pouring down, making our clothes stick to our bodies
"Just because you wont let it be Max, people can be happy, go on stupid dates, gift each other chocolates or flowers or just little gestures" I defend myself
"Don't you think I tried? I didn't have a father figure that I can look up to , I barely had a home because he dragged me to all sorts of Karting events across Europe. I was barely home with my mother and sister and I didn't get the choice to even get friends because I didn't talk to anyone for longer then a month. Sorry if my lack of love in my life is inconvenient to you. I like you Dylan, I'm trying okay" he says his voice breaking mid sentence he runs his hand through his hair to stop it from getting into his eyes
"I..." I say overwhelmed "I didn't mean it like that Max... you know that. I hope you'll find someone who can teach you everything there is to know about love, I just know I can't do it and I'm sorry about that" I apologise holding in tears, which he wouldn't even recognise with the rain running down my face, the rain pouring down on him reminds me of my dream, only now it feels more like a nightmare "I will leave now, I'm so sorry" I say and turn around and force every muscle in my body not to run towards him and kiss him...
I approach my car and sit down behind the wheel even though I feel like crying I can't, theres a sense of relief about what just happened, which is concerning but maybe its better this way...
I start the car and just drive back to Belgium, to meet with Tom cause I really need a drink after today...
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I pull up to Toms driveway, my brain still processing what happened, my brain trying to erase the whole scene
I turn off the car and sit behind the wheel for a moment, taking a deep breath before getting out and ringing the doorbell to the studio.
"Damn you got here fast" Tom says surprised when he sees me and lets me in "you're soaked, do I need to bring you some fresh clothes?" He asks me
"No its okay" I say and sit down on the couch and stare into the wall, saying nothing
"Well for someone who just got kissed and have a date coming up you don't seem so happy about it" tom says and joins me on the couch "you alright there bro?" He asks worried
"I just don't think I can do this"
"Music?" He asks confused
"No the whole dating thing, I thought after the date with Max didn't work out, I would be done with him, but I can't get him out of my mind. But the time with Arthur today was just what I needed and want inna relationship. Just the comfort, clarity and I don't know. I completely forgot about the outside world while talking to him" I explain and let out an annoyed sigh
"Hey, you can like two people at the same time alright. You just know if you love someone in that way or not and the way you describe your time with Arthur seems like you love him" Tom responds
"Its just, I had a small argument with Max earlier and he's the only one that boils my blood, but the same I amount that I could kill him, I could just risk it all and kiss him"
"But you didn't! See you spend the entire day with Arthur and were happy, then you spend a short time with Max and look at you" he makes a valid point "just don't contact him for a while and enjoy your time with Arthur before he leaves for his next Race"
I take a deep breath to accept what Tom told me to do "alright... how about you show me the rhythm you've been working on" I say moving away from the topic
"Oh yeah, come here" he says and gets up, I follow him to his desk and sit down on the chair next to him and he starts playing the music
"Oooh yeah thats a nice Intro" I say and continue listening
"Wait can we slow down the rhythm after the intro" I ask and he edits the file and play it again
I start humming to the music "yeah I can definitely work with this, add a little beat drop for the chorus and its like builds up, then the next verse is gonna be slightly faster then the first one" I propose and he types around on his computer
"Hmhh cause I know I should be runnin for the hills" I start coming up with lyrics
"Yeah, can you send me the file and Ill work something out, I also got some lyrics for a sad song" I tell him and take out my phone and hand the lyrics I wrote on my notes app
"Wow these are... some deep lyrics man. I'll try and find a nice beat to them" Tom says reading through them
"Okay great, I will head home and get some sleep so I can look presentable for Arthur tomorrow. Thank you again for being there for me Tom, it means a lot" I tell him with a smile
"You're welcome to come here anytime man, don't worry about it and have fun tomorrow" he smiles at me before I grab my stuff and leave his place, driving home and basically pass out on my bed instantly
