Mafia Men IV: Rossi

Chapter 35

Lia POV

I woke up and realized that I was in a bed. I had fallen asleep during the movie. I tried to move but I felt his hand wrapped around my waist. I turned around and saw him staring at me.

"Eli what? Why am I here?" I asked him and he smiled softly

"You said my name." He said "Fuck I love it when you say my name Lia."

He pulled me closer to him in the bed.
"You fell asleep and I brought you here. I just wanted to hold you." He said staring into my eyes "Remember when we used to sleep like this"

"We don't anymore" I said and his jaw clenched

"Let's not say things that will upset each other." He said running his hand along my throat and down my stomach.

"I was a fool Lia. To not see what was in front of me. I coddled you and pushed you so deep into yourself. I was blind not to see the woman in front of me. You are gorgeous. Every part of you is gorgeous. Can you ever forgive me?" He asked

"You hurt me Eli. You called me so many demeaning things when I was growing into my body trying to figure out myself sexually. You tied me to a bed" I said crying and I removed myself from his hold. I wrapped my arms around my middle. I shook my head. "You made me feel so different and disgusting for wanting anyone to touch me. For wanting you to touch me."

He sat up and he had hurt in his eyes. When I was younger that look would make me melt and simmer any anger I had towards him but not anymore. All I felt was disgust towards him.

"So no. I'll never forgive you for what you did. I moved on. You need to too." I said and his eyes became angry

"I'll never move on from you. Why can't you get that? You are everything to me." He said

"Why? What did I do that made you this way? Do you hate me?" I yelled

"Of course not. I could never hate you. I wanted to believe me I wanted to hate you Lia. For letting Cameron come in between us for letting him fuck you before me. I was supposed to be your first Lia. Me! Not him. He doesn't know you like I do nor love you like I do. I went away after protecting you and you move on to that that smug bastard who thinks he owns you." He yelled

"I love him" I yelled and he grabbed me by my throat slamming me into the bed. I stared at him. He lowered himself on me and his lips grazed my ear.

"I hope you're happy to know that you did what you intended to do. You ripped my heart out and now I only think it's fair that I do the same to you. I'm going to rip his heart out of his chest and enjoy it." Eli said and then let me go. I rolled over and started sobbing.

He got off the bed and stood up. He paced around the room and came over to me. I moved away from him and he grabbed me pulling me into him.

"I'm sorry. Fuck Im sorry Lia." He rocked me in his arms as I tried to fight his grip but he held on to me. "Everything is wrong. It's all wrong. It's all wrong"

"Please just kill me." I cried "Please"

He looked at me and I saw the tears build in his eyes. His jaw clenched. He shook his head. "No. No I can't do that Lia. It will kill me. Please don't ask me to do that. Please." The tears rolled down his cheeks and he pulled me tighter into him.

I stilled in his hold as he rocked me in his arms. I thought about what Nic said about me having control. Eli was sick. He depended on me. It always felt like the other way around but it wasn't. The minute I left this earth Eli would be right behind me. I had the control here and I was going to use it to get the hell out of here.

"Eli" I said and he looked at me. I saw the pain in his eyes. "I need some time alone please."

He nodded letting me go and I sat on the bed hugging my knees. "Take your time darling." He said softly brushing my face with his hand

He got up and walked out the door closing it behind him. I sat there in his room and looked to see his phone on the nightstand. I grabbed it and quickly ran in the bathroom closing the door. I dialed Cameron's number and it rang and rang. The last ring I knew he wouldn't pick up until I heard.

"Hello" I heard his voice and I started crying

"Lia! Love. Is that you?" He said and I stood silent too
scared for Eli to hear me. He could have came back in the room.

"Are you okay love?" He said and I cried harder. I missed his voice so much "Listen to me love. I'm going to find you and I'm going to bring you home. Stay strong okay. I'm such a wreck without you. I love you so much"

I heard him sniffling on the phone. "Please say something or press a number on the phone so I know you're okay."

I pressed the number one and he sighed. "You don't know what you have until it's ripped from your arms. I used to think that I couldn't change and that my life was set in stone until I met you. I want to be with you forever and I want you to be my wife and the mother of my children. I can't have a future without you in it and it scares me to death the idea of being a father because I don't know how. I never had one to show me but for you to have you in my future to keep you. To have another part of both of us in this world, I'll face all my fears for that because I love you."

I sniffled and he sighed. "I'll find you. I promise I'll find you-"

A knock on the door sounded. "Lia are you okay?" Eli said

"Wait wait Lia-" He said before I hung up. I deleted the trace of the call off his phone and put it away

"I'm about to shower" I said and he sighed

"Okay. I'll sleep in the other room tonight. Hopefully we can talk tomorrow morning. Please." He said

"Yeah. We can" I said and he stood there for a minute and I heard his footsteps sound further and further.