Mafia Men IV: Rossi

Chapter 37

Lia POV

After breakfast this morning I sat in the backyard with Eli sitting across from me. The backyard had a large garden with a big pond and it would be beautiful had my company not been terrible. We had tea set in front of us and I just stared ahead.

"I'm sorry about last night. About what I said." Eli said
"I was angry and I shouldn't have said it. I get..I get why you can never forgive me. I thought about it all night. How humiliating it must've been for me to do that to you while you were discovering your body, to tie you to a bed. I don't know what overcame me but that's no excuse. There's no excuse for the hell I put you through all these years. You didn't deserve it. You are my best friend. The only woman in my life that I've ever trusted and I loved you the way you were when I first met you. I didn't want you to change. I wanted you to be you Lia. Then you started getting older and I did too and our bodies were changing and I didn't know how to handle it. My mother was gone and my father just shut me out. Everything around me was changing and I just wanted you to stay the same. I wanted to control something in my crazy life. You aren't a something. You are a person that I've wronged so many times. I took that out on you . I used your parents greed for money to fuel their love for me and keeping me in your life and I fought so hard to keep you the way I loved you. The girl that made me laugh, smile, and everything in between. Life events occurred and we grew and I felt like you were growing away from me. Men started to notice you and I became jealous at your attention to them and I tried to rein you in. I verbally abused you in the worst way possible when we were developing. I played on your insecurities making you dress a certain way, controlling your personal life, and not even acknowledging the way you felt about me. I didn't want anything to change between us and although I was in love with you. I thought about how love ruined my parents and I could risk it. I couldn't risk losing you. Losing what we had." He said

The tears blurred my vision and I looked down at my hands.

"So I pushed aside how I felt because I was a coward. Then that guy tried to hurt you and the thought of him touching you, hurting you sent me into a rage so deep I couldn't control what I did. That's when I realized that I fucked up. That I wanted you. That I wanted more for us. I was in prison for two years and all I could think about what how I would make it up to you. How I could get you to forgive me for every horrible thing i've said and done. That when I got out I'd spend the rest of my fucking life making it up to you. That Id tell you I love you and make love to you for the first time and we'd spend the rest of our lives together like we were supposed to."

His jaw clenched and his hand gripped the table a bit hard. "That is until I found that you weren't accepting the money or gifts I sent you and I wondered why. I knew you had to hate me but I couldn't protect you and it hurt me so bad. I sent someone to watch you from afar just to make sure you'll be okay. Until I found that Rossi fucker was swarming you and followed you after work and climbed up your balcony in the middle of the night, and you were staying at his house for weeks. It broke my fucking heart. That you smiled at him with that same smile and you laughed with that same laugh. Pictures of you looking at him with that way you used to look at me. I couldn't take it. I missed you too much even though I was so mad at you for replacing me like I meant nothing to you. But I couldn't blame you. I pushed you away and I don't blame you at all. I blame him. And that is why I'm going to kill him. I'm going to get rid of him so we can move on."

I looked up at him and shook my head. "Please Eli don't."

He wiped my tears on my cheeks. "That's the only way you will get over him. The only way we can get past this bump. We are meant to be. You might not see it but I saw it the moment I laid eyes on you Lia. Cameron has to die."

"Please don't hurt him. Please I'll do anything. Just don't hurt him." I begged

"The only other option is to let him go. You call him and tell him to stop looking for us. I have men following his every move and he's getting close. You call him and convince him that you're happy with me. That this is what you want. Make him stop looking for you and I'll spare him. I won't harm him and we can move on with our future" He said "And for a bit of an incentive. I have a clear shot on him right now. I've been too patient about this."

He pulled out his phone and showed a video of Cameron and Tyler outside a vehicle talking. Cameron looked pissed but the angle was on him. His eyes looked so tired and his hair was a mess. He looked so angry and I realized how much I missed him. Just looking at him and touching him.

"No" I cried

"Boss the call is yours. We have the shot" The guy said on the phone

"Your choice Lia." Eli said

I closed my eyes and breathed. The choice was clear. I had to let Cameron go.

"I'll let him go" I said looking at Eli and wiping my tears "Tell your guy to stop and I'll let him go"

"Negative. Head back" Eli said to the guy who responded "Yes sir"

Eli handed me his phone and set it on the table.
"One last step before our forever" He said wiping my tears and walked inside the house. I looked at the phone and dialed Cameron's number.

He quickly picked up the phone. "Lia" He said "Love are you okay?"

"I'm fine." I said clearing my throat.

"Where are you love? Are you hurt?" He asked and it broke my heart

"I'm fine Cameron. You don't need to worry about me anymore. I'm with Eli." I said

"What the fuck are you talking about?" He asked pissed and I smiled a bit at how he used to get mad at me and then it would end in a mind-blowing orgasm.

"I'm with Eli Cameron. Stop looking for me." I said

"He's making you say this..." He said

"No i'm alone right now. Listen to me Cameron. Did you really think we would work? Did you really think you were enough for me?" I said and he was silent and I felt like I wanted to puke. "We knew that this would come. That Eli would get out and he'd find me. It was a good distraction let's face it. He came out of prison and he apologized for everything and me and him are great now."

"Lia-" He started his voice strained

"No listen. You need to hear this. Hear me clearly. It's..it always been him Cam. It will always be him.. not you and you were a fool to believe otherwise." I said "You even told me you love me. You are..w..weak. You will never be him. So stop looking, stop trying. I am home. This is where I want to be." I said

There was nothing on the other line. He was silent.
"Have..have a nice life Cameron" I said and hung up. I broke into sobs so hard my chest began to hurt. It felt like I was stabbed a million times and yet I was still breathing. I didn't want to breathe. I didn't deserve to breathe after everything I said to him. This was the pain that I had to bare for the worse alternative, him dead and I'll bare it a million times over to avoid it.