Mafia Men IV: Rossi

Chapter 40

"Hey!" I heard the security guard yell. I broke apart from the girl whose lips were on my neck. "Cameron we're closing"

I looked at the time it was 8am. "It's 8am?" I said running my hand through my hair.

"Yeah we won't be open till 7pm tonight come back" He said and I nodded

I downed my drink and got up. The girl whose name I forgot grabbed my hand. I smirked and removed it from hers.

"Where are we going now?" She asked

"I'm going home" I said walking out the door and she followed out

"Can I come?" She asked

"No sweetheart he has to shower and get ready for the next shindig" Tyler said standing outside the club leaning against his car in his suit.

I smirked at him. "As usual my chaperone" I said getting in the passenger seat of his car.

"Bye Cameron! Call me!" she yelled and I winced at her voice. It was annoying.

Tyler got in the drivers seat and drove off. "Really Cam? Drunk at 8 am. You were at this club all night."He said

"I do remember the days when WE were at the club all night." I said lighting my cigarette and he rolled the windows down

"Yeah that was before-" He stopped himself

"Say it. I'm a big boy" I said blowing out the smoke

"That was before you met Lia." He said and my jaw clenched

"Well this is after her." I said and he looked at me.

"Still can't say her name huh?" He said

"I can I just don't want to waste the energy" I said looking out the window

"It's been four months Cam." He said "You're running yourself and the business into the ground"

"The business is fine." I said

"Because I've been bailing your ass out. It's over. Your wallowing days are over. She's gone. You let her go. You need to move on." He said pulling over to the house

"I am moved on." I said getting out the car flinging my cigarette and going in the house.

"I'm not gonna keep picking up the pieces for you Cam." He said

"I never asked you to." I said and went upstairs

I got undressed and showered. I hated this shower compared to the one in my old room. I couldn't dare sleep in that room after her. Everything in the room reminded me of her. The sheets smelled like her. Her clothes were still in there. Even her favorite books were on my dresser. I couldn't rid of the tshirts of mine that she wore. Images in my mind of me fucking her senseless throughout the room. Everything reminded me of her. Every fucking thing. It made me sick. Actually like I actually felt sick. I got out the shower and wrapped my towel around me and puked into the toilet. I sat on the floor and just stared off into this distance. I flushed the toilet and ran my hands through my hair. I missed her. God I missed her even though all the things she said haunted me. I couldn't help but miss her. I got up and brushed my teeth. I hopped back into the shower and scrubbed my body hoping to rid of the feeling of her touch. Every part of me she touched remained on fire and I can't douse it. I got out the shower and changed into my suit. Ready to get through this meeting and head out to get a drink to avoid my dreams or more like nightmares that replayed in my mind of her.

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The meeting was over and I got up and looked at the time. It was about 1:30pm. Hell it was 5pm somewhere right. I left out the house and looked to see Tyler leaning against my car.

"Going somewhere?" He asked

"Yeah errands, grocery shopping, target." I said smirking and he shook his head

"So you don't mind if I come with you." He said

"Twos a crowd" I said going to my car and it wouldn't unlock. I sighed.

"What did you do?" I asked him

"You're not drinking and driving." He said

"How else will I get to the bar?" I asked him

"Cam we had this same conversation everyday for the last four months." He said and I rolled my eyes

I got in his car and he did too.
"Which one?" He asked

"It's almost two. Let's do the one by the library" I said

"Al's?" he asked and I nodded

He looked at me. "What Im feeling nostalgic" I said and he started the car driving off .

"What time should I expect you back?" He asked

"Don't" I said and he glared at me

"You think you'll actually get laid this time?" he asked

I glared at him. "It's whiskey dick" I said

"For four months? Never heard of it lasting that long" he said

It's been four months since I've had sex. The longest i've ever gone in ever. I've gotten to the bed stage and once the woman under me is hot and ready my dick has just been limp. I blamed it on all the alcohol but what's scaring me is that I think he met a place that he loves and doesn't want to experience anything else and that reality is killing me. Not only did she stomp on my heart but also my dick too. The only release that I've gotten was from my hand and thoughts of me fucking her over and over again. Nothing compared. Part of me wished I could see her again just so I could choke the shit out of her for doing this to me. But the other part of me wouldn't dare hurt her like that no matter what she did to me.

"It's possible" I said and he pulled over to the bar

"I'll be back. Don't die" He said and I nodded getting out the car

"No promises" I said smirking and went into Al's through the back entrance because I didn't want any of the girls in the front to see me. I wanted to drink privately in the back room and drown in my sorrows per usual.

I walked in and the guard shook his head as I smirked at him.

"Don't be too excited to see me Fred" I said and he shook his head again

I turned back around and bumped into someone. I groaned and looked down to see her turn around.

"Sorry" She said looking up at me and my heart skipped a beat. Her eyes widened and I froze. No amount of preparation could have prepared me for this moment. Here she was after all this time. After leaving me for him. I felt my anger rising and she stared at me with her eyes searching in mine. I saw it for the first time. It was fear that shone in her eyes. She did the one thing I wanted her to do because I knew that if I caught her she'd regret it. She ran. And of course I chased her.