Mafia Men IV: Rossi

Chapter 47

"She's still upset?" Tyler asked as we sat in the office. He poured me a drink and I took a sip of it.

"Yeah she's in this weird state right now. Like she's happy she's away from him but not happy that he's dead. I want to be supportive but how can I be when I'm happy that he's dead. I am upset however that I didn't kill him" I said and Tyler smirked at me

"Maybe don't share that information with her" He said

"Obviously. It's been almost a month since his death and she's been in this void of herself. I hate it." I said

"She's normal unlike us. It's grief. We don't feel it because we are surrounded by death but Lia, i'm sure that took a toll on her." Tyler said and I sighed

"Grief" I repeated "How do I stop her grief?"

"Take her mind off of it. Take her out somewhere. Her being cooped up in the house with all these feelings can't be good." He said and I nodded

"Okay"I said downing my drink. I went upstairs and into our room and she was laying in bed with a book in her hand.

"Hi" I said and she looked up at me smiling softly but it didn't reach her eyes. These past couple of weeks it never did. I was terrified that his death dimmed her light and everything I loved about her. Terrified that it tainted her. I was so dark and she was so bright and I loved her because of it.

"Hi" She said.

I stared at her in her pink nightgown that rose up her thighs revealing her pink panties. I shook my thoughts. I was so horny and the last time we've had sex was in the alley that day. The timing just never seemed right after he died.

I sat next to her. She put her book down and looked at me. "You okay?" she asked

"Are you okay?" I asked her and she nodded looking at her hands "It's okay if you're not love"

She looked up at me with her eyes glassy.
"God Cameron. I feel so guilty." She cried

I pulled her to me and she sobbed in my arms.
"I'm trying to feel grief, to feel bad, but I don't. I'm happy he's dead and I don't know what to say about myself. I'm a terrible person." She said and I was shocked

"Nonsense. Baby, you are an amazing person. He hurt you. He hurt you for years." I said and she looked at me "Maybe you're not happy but relieved. You shouldn't feel guilty for being relieved. You are the sweetest person I've ever known Lia. Beautiful through and through."

She looked at me smiling softly. "Why don't you lie?" She asked me "You said you never do. Why?"

"My father was pretty powerful and hated. He taught me everything I knew at a young age because he knew one day he'd die. My mother stood by his side no matter his reputation. She loved him. One day when I was 7 years old some guys broke into the house and killed my father. My mother saw and ran hiding me in the closet. I begged her to hide with me. I didn't want them to hurt her. She looked me in my eyes and said everything will be alright Cammy. I cried and shook my head. I wanted to stay with her. She told me no and looked me in my eyes and said 'have I ever lied to you?'. I shook my head no because she never did and it was the first and last time she did. I let her leave me in that closet and they killed her. She led them away from me and they killed her. She lied to me and I swore to never lie to anyone like that." I said and I looked at Lia and she had tears in her eyes

She quickly tried to wipe them but looked away from me. I could see the pain in her eyes for me of all people.

"I'm sorry I'm not trying to pity you." She said still crying. I made her look at me.

"You want to know the reason I lied to you that night?" I asked her and she nodded

"I hated my mom for so long for lying to me. She lied to protect me and I never understood it until that moment. She made me feel safe in her last moments when it was anything but. She did it because she loved me. I lied to you that night Lia because I thought I was doing the right thing by you but truth is I am a far worse person than my mother was. I wish to never see you with anyone else even in my death. I'm selfish, I'm demanding, i'm intolerable at times, I know my faults, but no it wouldn't make me happy to see you happy with kids by a man who gets to hold you at night, a man that's not me. The thought kills me to this day that I said something as preposterous as that. In this life and in the next I will love you Lia please don't let my ludicrous statement under duress from that day negate that." I said and she looked at me and smiled

"Thank you for sharing that part of yourself with me Cameron. I love you so much more. Plus you're a terrible liar." She said and I smiled at her pulling her into my lap. I felt myself get harder underneath her.

"Sorry" I said and she shook her head no and kissed me on the lips. I deepened the kiss as she grinded on my hardness. I groaned.

"Lia" I warned her. It's been weeks since I've fucked her and the mere thought of it almost made me come.

"Fuck me Cam." She said and I grabbed her by her throat as she unbuckled my pants pulling me out my briefs. I pulled her nightgown up to see her bare.

"No panties?" I asked her "You're trying to kill me."

I sat her on me slowly and she winced adjusting to my size. I groaned as she rode me. It's been too long since I've felt her wrapped around me. It was the most magical thing. I looked at her and she stared at me. I kissed her deeper. I pulled away. I pushed her hair from her face and smiled at her. "The love of my life" I said to her and her eyes got glassy

"You don't mean that." She said and I nodded

"I do. I never meant anything more. Ever." I said and the tears ran down her cheeks. I kissed her cheeks and laid her down on her back. She moaned as I drove into her with so much force I couldn't control it. I wanted to write my name in her pussy and own it. I wanted everyone to know that she was mine and I had no intention of letting go.

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"Cameron, what is that smell?" I heard her come into the kitchen to see me cooking breakfast on the stove. She smiled at me and I handed her flowers that I bought that morning. She smiled and sniffed them.

"My favorites. Thank you so much" She said

I leaned over the counter and kissed her.
"Have a seat" I said and she did smiling at her flowers

I turned my back to her and put the pancakes on the plate along with her second surprise. I turned around and pushed the plate in front of her. Her eyes lit up.

"Pancakes oh my gosh! What is that?" She looked at the writing to see spelled out on top.

"Can I be your boyfriend?" She read and looked up at me smiling hard

She ran up to me and jumped in my arms. "Yes!" She yelled and I laughed kissing her on the lips.

"You remembered?" She smiled softly

"I never forget anything that involves you love." I said "Speaking of...you remember the I owe you you gave me not to tell your roommates of our physical relationship?"

"No no no no no" She yelled hopping out of my arms screaming and running off. I laughed hard. And then I of course chased her.