03.30.24
(𝘈 𝘓𝘪𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘳𝘺 𝘗𝘪𝘦𝘤𝘦)
INSECURITIES and BETRAYAL aren't uncommon in this society. Most of us tend to trust someone so much to the point that we give them all of our possessions, love, care, and sincere intentions, but in the end, they mock us from behind.
The month of March was one of the months that I'd like to rebuke. I have received betrayal and mockery behind my back. I have lost confidence to face the people around me because I keep reminding myself that I'm at fault. I am the one to blame for all the unnecessary and filthy scenarios that have happened. I am the one to blame for trusting people that aren't really deserving, and it's my fault that I couldn't even recognize their intentions because all I can see is their bright and comforting smiles whenever I'm around.
I saw how their eyes shine whenever I'm with them, their actions that made me feel worthy as their companion, and their warm hugs that made me realize that I am not alone in this battle. But it changed...
Behind those bright and comforting smiles, there were insecurities and insults that they kept in their filthy mouths.Behind those shining eyes, there were burning flames that were prepared to throw upon me.Behind those actions and warm hugs, there were burning swords prepared to stab me.
And then I realized...
I really cannot dwell with these kinds of people,I'm too weak to face them.I'm too naïve to fight back,And I'm in such pain when I set my revenge on track.
I cannot control their words,I cannot stop them from stabbing me with their swords. I cannot avoid having interactions with them,I have no power to do anything, anymore.
Some might say, I'm a fool,Yet oftentimes I think of myself as a rubbish creature. Most of you might look at me nastily,Yet I look at myself like some kind of unworthy being.
These are the things that betrayal caused me. The words that I wanted to say were still left unsaid. The thoughts that I want my close friends to hear are left unspoken.
INSECURITIES and BETRAYAL are not uncommon in our society.
And this is my testimony.
