Being indifferent may be difficult but it can be controlled. By any means, palagi tayong may way of saying our disagreements sa bawat isa. Minsan para maparamdam natin sa isang tao na ayaw natin sa kaniya lumalayo tayo physically. We chose to develop "isolation" ika nga, unlike in my previous chapter na tumatalakay sa pagkakaroon ng "pakialam" sa isang tao, in this chapter I want to express how it is hard to deal with people who were too aloof and careless on their surroundings.
From the point of view of someone who has experienced isolation and being aloof from people for the sake of solitude, sa ibang tao hindi ganito. Have you ever been experience that someone is indifferent with you? 'Yong feeling na ipaparamdam sayo not just physically but emotionally na hindi ka naman "belong" sa circle nila. To the point na kahit anong approach mo, o kahit maging "linta" ka mang dikit nang dikit sa kanila ay bakas pa rin sa mga muak nilang hindi naman masyadong kagandahan ang "unwillingness" to be friends or to have you even as their acquaintance.
Some have ways to make you feel less of a person by creating "arguments" na kahit gusto mo lang i-express ang sarili mo, magbigay ng opinion, or suggestions eh saksakan pa ring ipangangalandakan sayong hindi ito katanggap-tanggap. Is it just because you are part of minority? Or is it because you haven't been their friends from the beginning? Kaya naman siguro ay hindi sila sanay sayo't mas pinipili nilang talikuran o makipag-plastikan na lang for the sake of a conversation or agreement.
Sometimes I think they are using their personality just because they need something from you. Nagkakaroon ka lang ng chance na kausapin sila ng maayos, na ngumiti o tumawa ng totoo, and for a second to think that you are important for them just because they need something...
Ito 'yong bagay na hindi ko rin minsan maintindihan. I admit that at some point of my life, I chose to become indifferent not just because I am being careless of my surrounding but because I need some time alone to reflect and see the good things in life. That means being "indifferent" for me means "taking some time".
But not for others who just want to use the push and pull trick in psychology. Nagiging indifferent sila at pinaparamdam na wala ka lang para sa kanila, na hindi ka nila kailangan kasi hindi ka naman belong sa circle nila. Masama ang tingin nila sayo kasi nga "bagong salta" ka lang or maybe because wala silang mahanap na "common denominator" ninyo kaya ka nila nilalayuan.
Being indifferent with people may be difficult but IT CAN BE CONTROLLED.
Hindi mo naman kasi kailangang makipag-plastikan kung gusto mong magpakatotoo sa sarili mo eh.
And the most important thing is, you do not need to be indifferent just to use other people to feed your ego.
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