Sinful Surrender

Chapter 20

Leyton and I really spent the night being trapped in the elevator. Unexpectedly, something happened between us. I just gave him the pleasure that he wants...my body.

Bumigay ako sa kanya para tantanan niya na ako pero magsisinungaling ako kung hindi ko nagustuhan ang ginawa naming.

I admit, I enjoyed it. I missed doing that with him. And the moment I felt him inside me, those years of abstinence, it vanished in a glimpse of an eye.
I feel whole again.

"Leyton, pinag-usapan na natin 'to, hindi ba? You promised me that after I give myself to you, you will leave me alone!" I said while walking towards my car.

Nasa parking lot kami at ang bwesit na Leyton ay panay ang sunod sa akin. He was asking about what happened to us!

"Yes, sinabi mo nga 'yon but I didn't promise that I will leave you," he replied.
I stopped from walking, and I looked at him frustratingly.

"Ano pa ba ang gusto mo? Do you want more rounds, the fine! Let's do it. Pero after this, wala ka nang kinalaman sa akin."

Bumakas na rin ang inis at frustrasyon sa mukha niya.

"Do you think na 'yan lang ang habol ko sayo?" he jeered.

"Then what? Do you want the company? Sorry pero hindi ko ibibigay sayo ang kompanya!"

He disheveled his hair as a sign of frustration. Pareho na kaming mainit ang ulo sa isa't isa.

"Fucking no! -"

"Then fucking what?!" sigaw ko.

Buti nalang talaga at walang ibang tao ngayon sa parking lot.

He looked so wasted. He stared right straight into my eyes and look at me bloodshot. Dahan-dahan siyang lumapit sa akin. Nanatili lang ako sa kinatatayuan ko. He went near me until there's no space left for us.
I gasped when he grabbed my waist.

"L-leyton..." I murmured with heavy breathing.

"I want you back, Odessa. I told you before, babalikan kita."

Malakas ko siyang tinulak papalayo sa akin at agad na dumapo ang palad ko sa mukha niya.

Ang kapal ng mukha niya. How dare him? Ano ako? Gamit? Na babalikan niya lang kapag kailangan niya?

"Fuck you, leyton. Fuck you! Hindi na ako ang dating Odessa na mauuto mo lang." Tears started to form into my eyes.

"Hindi na ako ang Odessa na babalikan mo lang kapag gusto mo! Hindi na ako ang Odessa na gagamitin mo lang kapag kailangan mo... Hindi na ako 'yon..."

I broke down in front of him. Humagulgol na ako sa harap niya.

"Odessa..."

"Don't! Don't come near me!"

He tried to go near me, but I stopped him.

"Huwag ka na lumapit pa sa akin, Leyton. Huwag mo na akong saktan..." Tiningnan ko siya sa mata na may pagmamakaawa. "Nakikiusap ako sayo, leave me alone... Please... If you really want me, you will let me go."

Tumulo ang luha niya sa huling sinabi ko.

"Nasasaktan ba talaga kita?" his voice broke as his tears streamed on his face.

Hindi ako nakasagot.

Huminga siya nang malalim. "Pasensya ka na, Odessa... I thought this is the time where I could make it up to you... Pero nasasaktan lang pala kita."

Parang hinahati ang puso ko nang makailang beses. Masaya naman ako na bumalik siya pero ayaw ko nang masaktan pa. I can't take the risk anymore.

Bigla nalang siyang yumakap sa akin nan mahigpit. Humagulgol siya ng iyak sa akin. Para siyang bata na inagawan ng laruan.