Real life

Chapter 30

Brooklyns POV

"Brooklyn how long are you going to keep this up for. You have to tell him, or sooner or later he's gonna find out on his own" Camy tells me and then takes a sip of her coffee.

"But, I just don't get the point in telling him. It won't change anything"I say. "He got you pregnant you didn't do it alone, don't you think he has the right to know that he has a child" She tells me determined she's going to convince me to tell Tanner I'm pregnant.

Ok I know that was a bit much so let me recap the past 7 months. After Tanner moved out and we broke up I kept getting sick throwing up, you know the obvious pregnancy symptoms. Then I was late and Camry and Ryleigh convinced me to take a test. So I took one and it came back positive. I went to the doctor and it turns out I was 5 weeks pregnant. Which confirmed that it was Tanner even though it only could have been Tanner.

So yeah I can't get the guts to tell him because I just can't face him again. Tanner texted me on my Birthday and it took me a little bit to bring myself up to text him back. I texted him. I told him that I was sorry and I told him I have never missed anyone more than I miss him.

I mean it's true. I felt comfort when I was with Tanner, he made me feel safe like no one else could. But Tanner never texted back, he just didn't care I guess. Which is one of the real reasons I want to tell him. I mean even his sister knows and I know that it is really hard to be living with him knowing that big secret.

"I just can't do it, not yet at least. What if I just wait until the baby's born" I tell her. "I guess I can't make you do anything but you know where I stand in this. I just hope you make the right decision."

I haven't posted anything on social media about my pregnancy because even though I don't want to tell him in person I can't let him find out that way, I would never do that to Tanner.

I still don't know how I am going to get to talk to him though. What should I do, just text him or something and tell him to meet me. But if he didn't respond to my first text, what would make him want to respond to my second one? Gosh I can't freaking do this. I'm too stressed and too pregnant for this.

When I got home I put on some comfy clothes and climbed into bed. For some reason tonight I really miss Tanner laying beside me. And some mornings I wake up and I think that somehow he will be laying beside me. But my dream never comes true.

I put my hand on my belly that grows by the day. I literally look like a watermelon with how big I am. I'm 33 weeks and due in the middle of november. I decided to wait until it's born to find out what gender it is. Part of me wants a boy but the other part wants a girl. I don't really know what I want and I really don't care what it is. All I care about is that it's mine and that it is going to be loved so much by her mom and her aunts.

I wake up the next morning and get ready for work. I put on a long,stretchy form fitting skirt with an oversized band t-shirt. I can't wear jeans and I don't want to because they make me way too uncomfortable but I also can't wear sweatpants because I'm going to work and I can't look like I just got out of bed and scare the customers away.

But the one thing that I make sure is perfect before I leave the house is my hair because if someone doesn't like my hair then they won't want me to do their hair because they think it will look like mine. So I make sure to take extra time curling it and making it look extra nice before I leave.

I've been working every day besides Sunday so that I can make some extra money to buy baby stuff. I mean sure I'm fine on my own but having another little me can add up.

I don't have that many clients today which is good because it means that I get to stand up for less amounts of time. My first client walks in. She has black hair which makes her face look absolutely stunning. She's glowing, I think she could be a model. She walks over and sits down in the chair. "So what's your name?" I ask her, "It's Payton" she says. "Oh what a lovely name, I'm Brooklyn. So what can I do for you today?" I ask her.

"I want to be the darkest you can get me," Payton tells me. "Okay, I think I can do that."

I start on her hair and finish it not too long later.

"Okay so what do you think?" I ask. "It looks really good. My boyfriend loves dark hair so I wanted to look good for him"

"Oh that's nice"

"So it looks like you have someone special" she says pointing at my bump. "Oh no, ex" I say.

"Oh, ouch that must suck" she says. Yeah Payton it really does suck that I'm doing this without him but it's fine I don't need a man's help. I just respond with "yeah"

"My boyfriend really is the sweetest, he always gets me flowers and takes me out on dates" I just shake my head. I hear the door jingle and I turn my head to see who it was. It was just Ryleigh. But when she looked at me her eyes were so wide I thought they were going to bulge out of her head.

I look back at Payton because I assumed she was going to say some other shit about how good her boyfriend is. "Even though it's only been a few months I think that Tanner and I are in love" as soon as she finished saying that Ryleigh came running over to us. "Payton what are you doing here" I think my head is going to explode. "Ryleigh what are you doing here?" payton asks. "I just came to see Brooklyn" Ryleigh tells her.

"Oh you know each other?" Payton asks.

I think I must look like a deer in the headlights. "Brooklyn is my best friend and-" Ryleigh starts but I cut her off. "Wait a minute, is your Tanner my Tanner?" I ask. "Sorry I was going to tell you sooner or later I just didn't want to hurt you" Ryleigh tells me. How can Tanner have already moved on? Did our relationship mean nothing to him? Did I mean nothing to him?

"Wait hold the phone" Payton says standing up from the salon chair looking as scared as I am feeling. "What do you mean your Tanner, he's my boyfriend"

"Tanner is Brooklyn's ex" Ryeligh tells her. Holy fuck why did she tell her that.

"Is he THE ex?" she asks me, tears almost running down her face. "My boyfriend got another girl pregnant" she says, tears now flowing down her cheeks. "Shit, I'm sorry" Ryleigh says regretting what she had told her. But Ryleigh had no way of knowing that I had told her that my ex was the one who got me pregnant.

"Peyton storms out of the salon and slams the door and gets into her car and drives off. Now tears are starting to form in my eyes. "Come on" Ryleigh says, taking me to the back of the salon into the breakroom so we don't cause any more of a distraction than we already had.

"Brooklyn, I can't even begin to explain how sorry I am. I know you must really hate me right now"

I ignore what she says and I fall into her arms sobbing. She rubs my back. "I don't hate you, I could never hate you. It wasn't your fault I just wish you would have told me" I say still holding on to her.

"I'm sorry I just didn't want to make you feel bad because he's just dating her because he is broken about you" She tells me. "Yeah I was a little skeptical because Peyton said that Tanner loved dark hair but Tanner hates dark hair he only likes blonde" I say letting out a laugh in my cry.

"Come on, I'll take you home" Ryleigh says.

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My favorite chapter. Yall are not ready for the next one.